The Journey Companion - Milestones of the Mythica

As a healing Story, the Journey Home tracks the movement from ignorance and chaos to the fields of Self-Realization across the fifteen years of the adventure and onward.

This timeline acts as a companion for major events related to the Quest in which levels of awareness and healing were accomplished, demonstrating the physics of the Quest and the yoga of Story.

NOTE - As part of the fundraising for the Mythica, I am presenting the process of the writing as it is happening.  This outline is my personal organizational model, which Readers are welcome to witness as the Story unfolds.  No promises as to consistency  of presentation are given, this is a preview into the process 🙂 

Concept Outline - 
My entire Path has been about the resolution of Heaven and Earth, coming from the perspective of Heaven.  Sent as a Messenger, to bring a new understanding to the World.  It’s the core of my Story.  The way my Self, Peter, exists in the human plane.  I came here, forgot who I was, and walked the rainbow road back to Remembrance.
There is another layer to the World.  A more archetypical layer, which is more constant than the flickering forms on the surface.  Movement across this layer of reality (the Mythica) is the landscape of our heroic journey.  We move across this landscape, the real World of magick, in the shared journey to Heaven on Earth. 
The outline represents the progression of both my understanding of the Self and the redemption of the root pattern of my Aspect, the purpose of my Self in the Great Story of humanity.
The Progression of Clarity
The ongoing clarification of shift in the Self was not a sharp thing, not a sudden Awakening without slipping back into confusion, but rather a gradual blossoming, in which the Light of awareness grew, and with that, awareness of the distortions, then their solutions, to the recognition of God’s Grace throughout the process and the perfect pattern that had always lay within me.
So many things can only be seen in the fullness of time.  How difficult the human condition had been, the flickering of my awareness in and out of the avatar state, the search for Self and eventual understanding of the uniqueness of my purpose.
Note - All throughout the Quest there is the sense of wishing to have ACCESS to my powers, of building the Mythica to manage the flickering between realms of being, being confused but eventually realizing the nature of the Self and the pattern that lay underneath
There have been challenges across the Quest that have been consistent.  Perhaps the most painful of them besides the sense of flickering between realms was the sense of being isolated, of being denied the softness and cuddles and nurturing from the Universe, demanded to truck my way across the planes in effort to get to such manifestations, having to forgive and accept my own passage and that of others on an almost daily basis.  The desire for a sweetness of connection and consistent sexual intimacy w/emotional depth has driven my Self, a long-standing feeling of being *outside* the nurturing and hearth of the mortal plane, as if imprisoned in a moving cage of isolation.
One of the most difficult things was the concept of self-control.  Why did it exist? Why were there urges and longings? Why were we demanded to temper our sexual desires? Why were we beholden to endure these pressures in the mortal plane? The sense of loneliness was extreme.
Major Understandings
  • Each of our Selves is on a heroic journey to the revelation of the Seed Within.  It is a singular and Collective adventure that defines the movement from the old paradigm to Heaven on Earth.
  • Vibrational fields, referenced through texture and emotion (when perceived by the conscious mind and not unseen in the subconscious) 
  • More and more I am realizing that there is a SEED within us that wishes to come through, a Life Vision, and that we must clear the way.
  • Through the hardships of the Shadowlands, I am coming to see how God has set up my journey in order for me to prove the deepest issues within the human condition
  • Resolving Heaven and Earth - Over the course of the journey I am constantly striving to understand the nature of the mortal (Earth) plane, in which there is a fundamental innocence to my nature, and a kind of incredulous recurring surprise as to the various aspects of the Earth plane at this time, in which my entire perspective on reality feels fundamental different.  What most beings take for granted in terms of their patterns is new and strange to me, requiring repeated application to hold the pattern within the field.  There is the sense of being a tabula rasa, a blank slate, and having access to awareness of the Akasha while having great difficulty with the patterns of mortality
    • This plays out deeply in a seeming inability to digest the patterns of Earth (or hold onto them), which then reveals to be a by-product of my lack of sanskara/patterns and coming into the field clean
    • Moments of incredible clarity, seeing the Creation, then lost
  • We are being moved around, pollinating Ideas across the skin of the World.  Aspects of God-throughi-Gais
  • Coming from Light into Love - One of the most important yet difficult aspects of the Quest to communicate is that my realization did not emerge from Love.  Instead, I was incredibly, deeply angry for a long period of time.  There was no understanding as to why I had to endure what seemed like an assault on my nervous system, why I had to endure the various indignities and defilements of relationship,  I was not forgiving, and did not understand it’s nature.  However, as my awareness clarified, I came to SEE that being unforgiving perpetuated the agitation within the self and prevented ACCESS to the Glory and Abundance that is our birthright.  This is a MAJOR point of clarity on the Physics of the Quest and is the root of the *why* of forgiveness, in which it is seen that God’s Kingdom is HERE, that Glory and Grace lay UNDERNEATH the distortions, and that we must find some way to clear the distortions to return to the easement, openness and clarity that is our birthright.  My journey into forgiveness was a thing of strategy, a grand effort to make the agitation and disharmonious circumstances of my timeline stop.  This Realization, coupled with the understanding that traumas were stored in the somatic body/subconscious, *demanded* the application of forgiveness, borne from the Awareness of the result rather than the Love for the very thing which felt like it was assaulting me, constantly.  Note - This also led to a deep understanding and compassion for the people.  Over time, I came to realize that my self had to be placed in such circumstance of deep rage and frustration, of Shadow and confusion, in order to understand the WHY of how beings who were not in the blessing of awareness were acting the way they were, and to see why forgiveness was necessary to clear the lens of the self and thus have more access to the Abundance.
  • Flickering between Heaven & Hell (Shadow & the Brightlands) - Recognizing the shift in arrangement that either dilated or constricted the apeture of access, labeling these Shadow and the Brightlands, in which we traveled *from* Shadow (the distorted state) along the rainbow road of changing hues to the Brightlands of clarity and access to our powers and Grace.
  • Recognizing the progression to cohesion - As I put this timeline together (and the Mythica as a whole), there is the sense of coming into cohesion, after decades of effort and splintering.  It is a textural thing, as are all perceptions and receptions of the Creation.
  • Yoga of Story (inspiration for emotional textures in films.  WHY does it occur?) - The relationship between environmental distortions and one’s personal process - Recognizing that the energies in the natural World are shown in our tales and Stories (yoga of Story) while also recognizing (eventually) that we are made of the elements
  • Understanding the sensate reality - From the sensate overwhelm, I would eventually gain facility in discernment and clearing.  As this was happening, I began to see how many beings did not possess actual discernment, which led to a deep question of the veracity of their “point of view” and a deeper understanding of the structure of things.
  • Recognizing that mythology, like all aspects, is a manifestation of the consciousness - Yogas develop spontaneously.  I get from pop culture what was presented in the classic yogas, yet comes to me (and others) through the appropriate form for the Age
  • Daka’s & Dakini’s - Many years of sexual healing (others) and eventually self.  Doing much work clearing out the patterns with beings.  In 2009, encountering the idea of ‘Dakas’ and ‘Dakini’s’ and seeing a whole lot of inconstancy in the people, confused over this, over the idea of ‘this is my beloved’ and then it shifting over time, wondering about the human condition
  • Driven to find my way across Shadow to the Brightlands - Recognizing that we live in the reflection of the self, doing clearing in effort to resolve the agitation which is so deeply felt by my consciousness
  • Powers developing “spontaneously” / in God’s timing - Witnessing my powers increasing, the understanding of the archetype/definition of self, feeling ‘faerie’ and other things, then transcending those definitions
  • Archetypical movement through the realms of being - Witnessing the Faerie Lords as allies, my own elemental essence, gradually moving into recognition that I am living in the magickal version of reality
  • Describing the Ocean - As the clouds and storms cleared, I could See more clearly the shape of the Ocean of Consciousness of which we were made.  The substrata of all things, always present on the causal levels of perception.
  • Witnessing the map of the Mythica - The elemental awareness which was so difficult to manage in my early years then crystallizes through the Academy as I come to see the nature of the mortal plane and the seasons, elements, etc.  From here, the tarot divination shows me that we are divining our way through the Creation * and * that common energies are shared between beings.  From here, tracking the journey, which was the only thing I could do, in effort to make my way to Heaven on Earth, recognizing how all our Paths are connected on the heroic landscape (Heroic Journey upgrade).  Coming to gradual discernment and clarity over the nature of the occurrences, and how they showed that we are all a singular organism with many different viewpoints.
  • The camera as transformational metaphor - The only thing I could do was photography, as it only required a lightningstrike of clarity in the moment.  The whole process was about connection with the deva, which then crystallized the nature of talents/siddhi.  This would become the prime metaphor for understanding consciousness, a way of sharing the perspective with the Commonwealth
  • The Shadow is the Siddhi - Gradually recognizing that the Shadow aspect of a Talent is also it’s Siddhi
  • Feeling the echo of violent thoughtforms in the self - A major motivation towards being kind and loving towards the Self and the self was the feeling-tone of the effect of violent or distorted thoughtforms, in which I actually felt an echo in my own body.
  • Shiva / I am the Destroyer - Recognizing my Aspect as the Destroyer of Illusion, of the old paradigm, receiving confirmation from this over and over from the field.
  • Divination - Witnessing the associations and elemental energies of the tarot - During my time at the Academy, there is understanding of archetypes like ‘Queen of Air’, ‘King of Cups’, etc. and other aspects, which would eventually lead me to the understanding that things were made of particular elemental Qualities, appearing in one’s life in relation to the unfoldment of their Path and the divination 
  • The nature of influence - Coming from such a place of sovereignty and with a history of defending myself against the overwhelming vibrations of ‘outside influence’, as I move closer to the Commonwealth there is the feeling of intentions that are trying to influence me through a variety of means.  It is not something I enjoy, and feels out-of-alignment with my own sense of virtue.
  • The nature of Realms / States of Being - Is the ongoing basis for the journey into the Mythica.  There is the realization that when an incarnate is in a “state of being”, there is (generally) no sense of anything else.  Their entire reality is defined by this state of being.  Over time, I have the sense that my flickering/drifting between realms is this very thing, in which I am seeing the various positions, or “assemblage points” of beings as gravities on the causal level of awareness, which create their entire reality from the centerpoint outwards.
  • Understanding that it was a gradual clearing - I would have called my experience a ‘Divine Madness’, and it certainly was, yet it cleared over time and the very substance of my self changed.
  • War with Earth - Due to what felt like an endless assault coupled with the splintered consciousness, I felt I had to engage military-grade effort to hold the line, as if at War with the very nature of the Creation.
  • What are we divining? (visions of the field / God’s unfoldment) - as I continued to study divination, the deeper question became ‘what are we divining?’ if we are gathering guidance, guidance from where? and guidance about WHAT?
  • Mythic self-definition - The sense that we are the very embodiments of the magickal World continues, and I see beings defining themselves as this or that.  Such resolves into an understanding of the self over time, in which the structures that I had studied at the Academy, the elemental configurations which then appear in the timeline in various other systems (Ayurveda, Chinese Medicine, the Gene Keys/Human Design) all act as mapworks to understand the nature of one’s *current* self.
    • (note - my perception of this, at the time of this writing, is very refined.  The understanding was a progression over time, in which the cracks & splinters in my point of view were cleared, and I saw things, saw form, in a new light)
    • This includes the various definitions of ‘tribes’, ‘cultures’, ‘elohim, ‘djinn’, ‘faeriefolk’, ‘arcturans’, ‘sirians’, all the various self-definitions.
  • Constantly reconsidering the nature of established forms - Over time, I am intuitively attempting to understand the nature of self.  Various systems have ideas about the self, such as the Chinese or Ayurvedic, etc. which come to occur for me as coming from non-attained and non-siddhic degrees of entry
    • as the Quest continues and I travel deeper into the Godlands, everything resolves to the gravity of incarnates.  I see the distinction, between the siddhic, Satya Yuga energies and those of the current Age.  Everything falls into question.  Yet before this happened, there was a definitive movement across the territories of perception and reception, constantly questioning.
  • Overall, a huge sense of frustration - The most common emotion I have felt across the journey has been frustration, as I had tried, repeatedly, to have ACCESS to an idea (clarifying the self, healing the splinters), and then experiencing little support from the community, which I felt I needed for support in vitality and healing, which led me to pull back into the self in exhausted exasperation, while constantly working to have consistent access to the willful manifestation in effort to heal and self, feeling blocked by God, while also *gradually* coming to see that all things were happening PERFECTLY and in order to bring about a better result
  • What am I? - There is a constant search throughout the journey to understand the nature of my self, which leads into an understanding of the Self and the various Aspects of the Self which play out in the mortal plane
    • What is the nature of “being”? - As the journey progressed, I would often hear mortals declare that they were “just being”.  Over time, I came to see that this statement was an influence from the pattern of India and other spiritual philosophies that were appropriate at the time.  Yet in the discernment of my gaze, there was the deepening into ‘what are you being?’, in which there was the recognition that we are always being something, at one point in TIME or another.  This related to the divination shown to me by the rain-deva, in which the frozen moment of Time was specific, a specific quality of BEING (What are you being right now? Being frustrated? Being a bird? Being a woman? Being a deva?) in reference to the I AM of the infinite.  It also related to the vague declaration that “Well I am all things” in which I would reply, “Not at same time though.”, which related to my sense of the lack of discernment and clarity amongst the declarations of the people, which irritated until there was the realization that the energetic quality that defined such presentations was the essence of ignorance.  Once again, my naivete to the mortal plane was going through a gradual Revelation in accordance with God’s Will.
      • (this understanding of ‘beingness’ will come into fruition on the Timeline during and after Bali 2017 - 2018) in which the iterations of ‘i’m just being’ will be revealed as the statement of beings who are unrealized, yet influenced by the once-vogue pattern of pre-Ascendent spirituality
    • Collective Consciousness/A Priori - Requiring other Aspects of the Self to arrive before I have access to particular Qualities, which demands the creation of a yoga of appreciation, the true namaste.  It is as if the pattern does not exist prior to my encounter with ‘others’, which gradually reveals that this is the nature of the blank canvas, the tabula rasa (blank slate) of the Creation … that beings have so many patterns and imprints, so many talents and Aspects within their current self they have no idea of What Is.  This further clarifies the redemption of Value and round table revenue, more aligned with the recognition of our shared resonance
    • Who is the Master? - One of the great difficulties in receiving the vibrational emanations of beings is a deep sense that I am the Master, yet somehow inconstant with my own aspect.  As this is happening, there is a gradual shift within the self to absorb that which is “missing” from the self to activate, which leads to an awareness of Collective consciousness and the deep understanding of namaste in reference to the qualities of the self within the Self
  • Witnessing beings as Goddesses and Gods - All throughout the Quest there is the sense, coming and fading from clarity, that we are the very Gods themselves, playing out our forms on the current octave of the Creation.  While this is beautiful, it will also cause difficulties as I will have the tendency to perceive beings as more aware than they currently are.
  • Is there Free Will? Do we live in a Friendly Universe?
    • Because of the splinter, the shifting of the gravity-point and the subsequent inability to access my powers consistently, I deeply questioned the nature of Free Will and, in reference to that, whether or not we lived in a friendly Universe.  It would be in 2013 that hope through the Shadows would be rekindled as I listened to Michael Beckwith’s ‘Life Visioning’.
  • “Always nom, forever nom, cookie.” Creating Spells - The Nature of Form - Building Spiritualities - realizing that the structure on the elemental/causal level of awareness is more constant than the shifting tones on the subtle and surface planes, I decide to start creating my own spells, building an entire spirituality from devotion to the beast, and other things like always nom, forever nom, cookie.
  • Discerning the elementa/causal planes - As my awareness clarified through the mortal condition, I came to see (from the a priori state of being) that all realities, all spells, all constructs, beliefs, etc. were MADE of these qualities of consciousness, which were, in turn, made of the substance of Gaia.  “Shakti”.  The “Goddess”.
  • Constantly clearing - being noble, yielding, apologizing, clearing clearing clearing - for a long time I am desperate to do whatever I can to clear the energy and take responsibility for my portion of the distortion.  I yield, over and over again, simply apologizing and clearing, in effort to make the hammering, the distortions, stop
    • Super-clearing the sexual energies and the alpha dominant energies within the field - , gradually coming to awareness of the textures of these and what “clean” feels like - seeing the reflections in the field and in the access of the consciousness, proving the road to Heaven on Earth.  Considering and FEELING the essence of nobility and Grace, making the right decision over and over again, holding to Virtue
    • Keeping my Word - After taking on the vows of the Academy, the strongest for me is keeping my word like iron.  It is the feeling that when we do this, we clear the energies within the self, it’s virtue clarifying our perceptions.  At one point, I give a class at the Academy talking about this, explaining that when we lie to ‘others’ we are distorting our own sense of Truth within our own selves
  • Deeply hating the Earth plane and the limitations of the Self - If one were to ask, the most constant emotion i’ve felt in my Earth journey has been one of frustration.  A constant sense of being denied or not received, demanded to compassion, to tolerance, to forgiveness as strategies to deal with an overall sense of frustrated annoyance, in which there was so much aggravation with the unsteady patterns within the self *and* the issues surrounding it that I had no choice but build the Mythica in effort to clear and cleanse the situation
    • Not understanding the nature of “practice” and eventually coming to understand by clearing the overwhelm of awareness that yoga defines itself.  That the practices evolve to heal the distortions that occur within the subconscious.  This would flicker in and out for years, as I resolved accepting the Earth plane, which was accepting the pain and discomfort of the distortions, as well as the lack of honour, clarity, etc. in the field.  Over time, through the splinters and flickering of even *remembering* to do the practices, I would begrudgingly surrender to What Is (after a long period of not understanding WHY this was happening and how God could be Love)
    • Realizing that I had to find some way to change my reaction to the constant overwhelm of vibration and the defilements in order to dissolve the repeated pattern which was, to my vantage, creating the circumstance.  Building the Mythica to remind myself (and others) that God is Good, that we can breathe into an easement which soothes the nervous system
    • Gradual recognition & acceptance that I must do the work along with all other Aspects of the Self - Though deeply frustrated, the Quest eventually reveals my nature of being a deva, as well as the necessity of doing what occur for me as remedial and juvenile mortal practices of change.  Yet, because of the flickering, I must do them nonetheless.
  • God is the Doer - The shift of state of being and gravity happening so uncontrollably, where I would lose access and memory to the shape I was in, inspired a very deep witnessing of the nature of WILL.  After all, one could not act upon something without being aware of it, and when that awareness flickered, the very memory of the thing was lost.  Awareness precedes action, wrought to the unfoldment of Divine Design.
  • Gradually coming to realize that all Ideas and Inspirations, the ‘inner truth’ of beings and their impermanent and varied philosophies and “realities” are all relative to their gravity, the definition of their self seen on the elemental/causal level
  • Witnessing the Shift - Gradually realizing as the haze cleared that the shifts I was experiencing, moving from Shadow to the Bright, were *SO EXTREME* that they demanded a meta-understanding of consciousness and self.  I realize now such was the nature of the untempered siddhi coming through.
    • Feral - It was all I could do to survive to be ultra-precise with the energies, snapping and sniffing at them with every bit of fae at my command.  I had to feel the landscape properly, to gain clarity.
  • The Exaltation of Divination - Having studied divination at the Academy and focusing in on the nature of perception and discernment, the Journey Home is very much about divination, manifestation, and the recognition of the much greater pattern of God’s unfoldment, including the physics of the quest, the natural laws which apply to all beings.  Over time, I will come to see that the entire process is boddhisatvic in nature, meant to help the people appreciate what it means to have a “self” and it’s context in the Great Story of our shared unfoldment (this involves all forms of ‘astrology’, ‘gene keys’, ‘human design’, ‘ayurveda’, or other impermanences, all of which relate to the fundamental structure of the self
    • The Nature of the Shamanic Dream (the exaltation of divination) - Gradually coming to SEE that all human experience, wrought around the gravity of the self and it’s perceptions, is a shamanic journey through the causal energies, interpreted at various depths, in order to facilitate the nature of their experience.  Essentially, that we are living in the substance of our own consciousness, in gravity-bubble realities in which everything is movement through a psycho-shamanic landscape.  Such was revealed to be the source of the interpretation of events in one’s Life as reflective of a particular as-yet-unblossomed energetic pattern, the “this is the Universe (the Self) telling me this”, or “this means this”, etc. all of which is a divination into the nature of one’s current being.
      • Such resolved as the nature of all ‘new age’, ‘shamanic’, ‘interpretive’ relationships, in which there were vague recognitions of the fundamental structure beneath the scripture, which is that everything is MADE of consciousness, and we are literally moving through the qualities of our self and other selves in a shared field of manifest dream at varying levels of clarity and ability.
    • Gradually coming to realize that Ideas *gradually* move through us over Time, echoing the prime imprint/Divine Design - 
      • On the elemental/causal planes of awareness, recognizing that the primal imprint, the Divine Design of a being, expresses itself over Time, evolving like the blossoming of a seed
      • this gradually becomes clearer as I am able to discern through the onslaught of sensations
  • Deeply understanding the nature of defilement and clearing, doing the ho’oponopono, vipassana, deva yoga, keeping my word, clearing the manner, all to intuitively clear the field
  • Healing talents - As time goes on, my healing skills grow considerably.  There is a progression from massage to shamanic energies, to subtle arrangement points, to a kind of lomi lomi, to a sense of the ho’oponopono, to holding the self and other selves inside the nimbus of my awareness, to recognizing that my very presence is changing things, which corresponds to a sense of Value and also the right-purposing.
  • Shadow/Brightlands/Access to my powers - Everything feels to be related to the clearing of the self, enabling access, in which I come to See that my entire incarnation is about representing this for the people.  And though there is the recognition of being an avatar, there is also a tremendous innocence (a priori / tabula rasa) to it.
  • Witnessing that beings are MADE of patterns, which gives rise to their thoughts, ideas, and the customs of the Age - As I travel closer to the Godhead, my perception of the ideas and constructs of the people changes.  I come to see that they are made of patterns which are vogue to the Age, what in vipassana were called ‘sanskara’.  While these are impermanent, they are beautiful, and appropriate.  I witness that my perspective on this is somewhat detached, as if I am observing something from another place of reference.
    • In this, the various ‘political’ and other types of orientations have questionable definition.  They occur as having definition relative to each other, themselves relative to the gravity of the unfolding Age and relative to the definition of ‘self’ in context.
    • Also, they repeat.  And appear to exist on octaves, where incarnate seeds (beings) encounter each other in the physical universe at particular points.  This will lead to the understanding of and the map of the Akasha.
  • Gradually coming to understand the “levels” of awareness - A major issue for my self has always been the tendency to view beings as what they are in the deep places, as compared to what they are currently being.  In essence, I have had the tendency to view them as more enlightened than they are, and then have been confused at their manner and reactions.  Over time, I attributed this to my own nature of being
  • Working to make the onslaught stop - Due to my sensitivity and ignorance of the mortal plane, most things here feel like oppressive and incredibly mundane patterns that are physically painful to endure.  Over time, I come to understand this and be more at peace with it, recognizing that my resistance to it is part of the issue.
  • Loving Pacha Mama - progression from Light to Love.  Recognizing that I Love the Earth and the elementals yet have been deeply irritated by the nature of unrealized —> realized consciousness and the people.  * Yet *, at the same time, there is the recognition (sometimes) that this is the very nature of the Quest and the Service
    • Led to trash by the Deva - All along the Path, I am led through intuition into trance-states where I am led to pieces of trash throughout the forest, helping to clear Pacha Mama
    • We are the emanation of God-THROUGH-Gaia - As time progressed, I would come to see that our mortal selves were the manifestation of the Divine pattern, coming through the body of Gaia as seeds who, in their various states of perceived separation and self-definition, the lines of mystery and awareness within, were being moved about by God’s Will to facilitate something “larger than the self”, and that the healing and embodiment of Heaven on Earth (vogue to the emergent Age) would be found through alignment with Gaia
    • The Mother Vine (Ayahuasca) - Deep relationship with the Mother Vine, appearing to help us on our Quest
  • Questioning the nature of suffering and causality - In my efforts to make sense of the overwhelm of my senses, I would feel into the subtle causes beneath the events beings experienced in their lives.  The anger, the frustration, the sins and cruelties.  Such became a progression, of gradual clearing, which, like the massage, went through various stages - that everything we presented was the embodiment of an emotional feeling-tone, a construct of consciousness that we were only partially (if that) aware of, and related to unresolved emotional patterns which were also the “karma” and “dharma” of one’s expression.
  • Having Access - one of the major things is about having access.  Witnessing the flickering/drifting from one state of being to another, in which my access changed, realizing that gaining access is at the root of many addictions and also shamanic medicines, and while my very Aspect is to remind people of that thing, and the Quest is meant to do that, requiring that I go through this (as reminded at the Gaia Temple by my higher Self), I have definitely railed against this deeply in the flickering amnesia of that Knowing.  Such brings up the quality of realms, again, in that we do not remember or have access to the Brightlands when we’re in Shadow.  This is a major thing, as I literally could not access the Love or my powers unless I did deep and seemingly constant clearing for a looooooong time.
    • such was a vast process, of constantly, constantly striving to make it through the madness, then having flickering senses of what wanted to come through, demanding the evolution of healing practices to clear the self such that I could See, consistently, and thus access, the Brightlands
  • A Priori - Patterns in the Water of God’s Mind - 
    • 2005 - Reading with Vedic astrology who witnesses my Aspect
    • “no karma”, no previous sanskaras.  having to discern the nature of form on the most primal and elemental of levels.  the nature of Shakti / The Goddess / Form.
    • As a result, most patterns in the World were incomprehensible, or flickering in and out relative to my position in the consciousness.
  • Coming to understand the nature of the Age- Within the awareness, flashes keep coming of another feeling-tone, one of expansion and Grace, flush with energies, where we are the living embodiments of the Goddesses and Gods.  Timeslip happens, and I am perceiving things in the “future” and the “past”, blending across my awareness in flickers and visions.  Navigating the incarnate plane is very difficult, and eventually I come to the Direct Perception that such is the nature of this AGE, itself an impermanent structure in the breath of the Divine, seen from a vast, vast tableau of vantage.
  • Using the camera to document the journey Into the Mythica - Because of my love for classic sci-fi and anything that related to journey across multiple realities, I felt the photos would be my breadcrumbs, ways of remembering my way back to the Brightlands, of triggering the Remembrance that caused a shift in being and restoring my access to Grace.
  • Drawing on Story, Song & Dance - Feeling the elemental textures in a great Opening during a lightning storm, drawing those textures through my form to give my self definition
  • Seeing the pattern repeating, blossoming into it’s deeper iteration, over Time - witnessing how the interests of my self (D&D, comic books, the elementals, the sensate world) showed themselves ALWAYS throughout my Path, playing out in an evolutionary expansion, my selfs Divine Design / Seed Within reflecting back through the field of my experience, it’s primal energies paralleling my movement through the consciousness.
  • Feeling the “Prima Materia”, evolving into Understanding of Consciousness-as-visceral-substance - “I moved through the consciousness."
  • Stabilizing the understanding of realms - travel into the Mythica - Recognizing that I must anchor the context, I weave the substance of the consciousness to create a primal glyph of the Mythica (much like drawing on the Deva of Story, Song & Dance), which appears on the surface-plane as a style of writing, yet is vibrationally made of particular qualities.
  • FEELING THE self-DEFINITION OF BEING A DIVINE BEING - Having the gnosis of being an angelic avatar, trying to figure out what kind of self I was being.  - “What are you being?"
  • Gradually coming to deal with the overwhelm - Using the Mythica to hold the course.  A Golden Compass and Subtle Knife at once.  A Motherbox/TARDIS.
  • Fables & Form - Drawing Prana from the Lore - Identifying with the magickal characters and adventurers, as they were far more REAL to me than the patterns of the Commonwealth, drawing on the prana of Story, the Shazam/Superman paradigm, envisioning the Brighthome as a TARDIS, building a Motherbox to help transition into the Fifth World.  Seeing the myth beneath the myth.
    • “Gone gone the gaze of man, once again the Angel grand!” —> “Lost, lost the angels gaze, once again in mortal haze” / “Shazam!"
    • Meeting Delerium, recognizing her as an embodiment of that energy.  Contemplating my own self-definition relative to the Incarnate plane
    • identifying with the Gunslinger, in service to the Rose, to save the Dark Tower - being on-point, with Excalibur-grade precision
    • “Gaze of SHIVA! / Kiss of Shakti"
    • Meeting Delirium in the streets of New York / Recognizing my self as an aspect of Destruction (Shiva) / Eventually recognizing the elemental energy beneath the Idea within ‘Sandman’ and seeing that Delirium was once Delight
    • Recognizing Ideas are coming through beings, feeling the siddhi beneath the surface of the comic books in the substance of What Is
  • Understanding the nature of the siddhi/manifestation/magicks - 
  • Devotion to Dance - Really going deep into magickal dancing, moving through the body, feeling the connection to Terpsichore, (Lady Dance).
  • Devotion to the Goddess - There was a period of time when I was deeply angry with the “masculine” aspect of the Divine, and strove to connect more with the Goddess.  Though there was the recognition that they were one and the same, the textures that underlay my interpretations were different, one more relentless and unyielding, the other more soothing.
  • Realization that my presence made magick more real for people
  • Not understanding, then hating the feeling-tone and process of self, then coming to forced acceptance and continuing to clear to allow the Joy and Goodness and Gift to emerge - walking the rainbow road.  Coming to Love the Self
    • (this is aligned with the redemption of Value, defined by my innocence to this plane (no imprints) which then demanded the arrival of Aspects who embodied Qualities, which then unfolded over Time in the definition of the journey of our selves)
  • Major issues with feeling assaulted by vibration
    • Due to the overwhelm and necessity of holding my vibration clear against the wash of distortions and being overwritten, I became very, VERY touchy about beings trying to give me advice without consent, and resolved that I would not assault others (as I perceived it) in this manner without at least Knowing what i’m talking about *AND* asking permission.  This became a deep resistance to offering ‘life coaching’ and ‘guidance’, for I did not want to commit the same presumption on others.
  • What is the Nature of the self and the Self? - As the divination deepens, I am constantly asking the question, ‘why is the self?’ and it’s accordant, ‘what is the self?’.  As time progresses, this becomes more clarified, as I see the various iterations of structure in the form of Ayurveda, Chinese Medicine, the Gene Keys/Human Design, all relating to the idea that there is a very specific structure of the self, and that learning to work with those specifics can heal the patterns in relation to Nature.
  • What is the nature of healing?
    • Questioning/Coming to realize that God is Good, that healing is a distorted pattern within the self, which is within the Self, which is derived from the nature of the Age
    • Recognizing the soothing energies of the deva
    • Recognizing that subconscious patterns are structural things, seen at depth, which block the flow of vitality/prana from an Abundant Universe
    • Realizing that such patterns are the by-product of the Age, which is also the definition of self and it’s transitions inside the context of the Collective Self, as perceived from dualism
  • Witnessing Patterns unfolding w/definition -
    • Because of my origin-point, most patterns in the mortal plane are unknown.  However, when they arrive, a download happens, and I understand the by the feeling in direct perception, allowing me to adapt
  • Our patterns are simple, yet play out in an infinite range of circumstances within the inconsistency of our awareness - As I look over my Story, I see the SAME patterns, the SAME resolutions, happening over and over.  In such manner, there is the witnessing that 
  • Feeling overwritten by the vibrations around me,losing my self (shapeshifting) - In the early years before the Quest, feeling overwritten by the vibrations around me, losing my self, and thus doing whatever I could to maintain cohesion, feeling vulnerable, not strong enough, overwhelmed.  Over the years, pushing back against what I felt was a neverending battle for sovereignty.
  • Building the Mythica - an Armature to remedy the flickering/drifting - Recognizing that my awareness was drifting, I set to work at building an anchor, a lighthouse that would help me to REMEMBER the realm/state of being of Grace.  A Mirrormask.
    • I would write things down, and forget.  Put them on calendars, and forget.
    • Yoga of Story/ Mythica -  Realizing that Union comes from any arbitrary form taken all the way, having a sacred relationship with Story which was the devotion, creating that kind of structure which then became it’s own siddhic virtue (perfection).  The Mythica would be the expression of that elemental pattern within the Weave, the embodiment of the yoga of Story, witnessing the unfoldment, which led to Realization and discernment of the nature-of (while also recognizing that any form will lead to the Understanding, eventually)
      • What is the nature of the mortal journey? - Gradually understanding the energy textures which defined “archetypes” and feeling how they wove together into Stories, which evolved into an understanding of the nature of human meaning
        • “Stealing Fire from the Gods” helped with this
  • Coming from Heaven to Earth (Formless to Form/Discarnate to Incarnate) - Gradually realizing that i was being a deva coming to the Incarnate to fulfill a function,realizing that everything is reversed for me, that I am coming “down” into Earth as compared to so many selves which were trying to rise “up” into another octave.
    • operating in a completely different context, I learned to use my powers to create Talents and Structures in effort to function
    • Every issue has been related to this, coming into the Earth plane, not understanding, then having resistance, etc.
    • At the Academy, major issues with Earth magicks
    • Only able to work with the causal energies, I eventually became very grounded in the nature of magick, even while flickering and shifting between realms.
    • Becoming more and more clarified in the nature of the shallow, subtle, and causal planes as I lived so deeply in the causal and was tracking my Path.
  • Feeling deeply unmet and unreceived, rejected, ignored for an extended period of time - Though I did not fully see it at the time, God’s Will predominated, invoking the unfoldment of the archetypical heroic journey.  All my efforts to connect were blocked, which I later came to realize was the Divine impetus defining Collective will, playing out for my self as my psychosomatic experience of Earth.
    • Addictions to self-stimulation (masturbation) in order to deal with the utter loneliness and lack of Joy, constantly trying to remember and understand an alien World while also traveling deeper into the Mythica
    • Addictions to ganja as a remedy for the splintering, terrified of not having access and thus being unable to function in the Earth plane
    • Constantly working to understand what was happening to me and feeling my way through the patterns and agitations in effort to find cohesion and stop the hammering
  • Gradually understanding the nature of realms, building off of pure elemental awareness, refined by divination, clarified into witnessing, which produced clarity and Understanding.
    • Feeling Divinely Gifted when I am in the Godlands, and completely inept in the Earth plane, flickering in and out with errant Shazam lightning
    • Shifting in and out of resonance with the Commonwealth, gradual clarity of it’s definition as relationship-with the reality I was experiencing.  Forgetting, Remembering, forgetting again, etc.
  • Perceiving the Bigger Picture - My point of view lay mostly in the Akashic field, in which I see the form beneath the forms, the deeper patterns that make up the substance of Creation.  There is a deep sense of the impermanence of things and the appropriateness of their forms in the current mode, which relates deeply to the physics of the quest.  It is a sense which transcends the currently vogue ideas of design, light codes, magickal training, etc. all of which are very beautiful and appropriate, yet are also recognized as the *current* iteration of the blossoming luminance on the planet and is also impermanent and relative to itself.  From this vantage, Aspects of the Consciousness are born, navigating through their own Heart’s Desire through a series of circumstance related to the unfoldment of their particular thing, always relating to the nature of and definition of the current “self” in relation to the Collective Self.
  • Major issues with India during early parts of the Quest - Eventually this reveals to be God’s purposing for me, as I am to understand *embodiment* versus transcendence (example - A Net of Stars)
  • Receiving the imprint of sacred commerce - (2014) My fundamental nature has always been to give.  As I contemplated the nature of products and value, the idea resolved that I could create products that had a more sacred relationship with Value, sharing the profits in an ongoing way with the people and healing the distortion.  (round table royalties)
  • Guardians of Avalon / Faerie -
    • Recognizing the underpattern of the Grail Queens & Kings
    • Giving rhymes to the bridge-trolls (crossing realms)
    • Sharing with the elementals (since a childe)
    • Continuing to run into avatars of Faerie (discovering the “Law of Reflection”)
    • Years of working with the Fire deva (issues with Earth magicks)
    • Mythos of Knight-Errant
      • Wishing to serve a noble cause
      • Disappointed in many beings who appeared to lack virtue
    • Connecting with the Fae Folk, the Goddesses and Priestesses, going deeper into the Mythica
  • Everything had to occur on the Path - Witnessing the Wonder, witnessing the synchrony of events, natural arrival of allies and opportunities.  Also noticing that my repeated attempts to inspire things to happen in a more direct way seemed to do very little
  • Right-relationship - A deep part of healing the distortions in the subconscious of the human condition is related to right-relationship with all our relations.  In a very real, embodied way, the way in which we receive the Aspects that we embody is different bodies allows us to work with the subconscious patterns that lay beyond our own line of mystery.  Case in point, as we embody different aspects of the Self, allowing ourselves to truly receive each other’s vibration changes the substance of the self, which clears subconscious patterns (which play out as disharmonies in relationships)
    • * Relationship-With-Form*
  • Witnessing powers and abilities come into clarity as a result of clearing/at the right time (in all ways, the examples of Adobe inDesign, or Music, or this or that, simply NOT MAKING SENSE until the right time, in which ACCESS was denied or allowed, based on the clearing of the self over time in the context of God’s timing and the Collective Self
  • Everyone is magickal sometimes - All beings have moments when they are in the positioning of magick.  When they have access to to deeper octave of awareness.  As there is no separation,there is the sense of change-over-time, in which the various Aspects of the Self find expression  This happens over the course of one’s Path.  In context, this means that ALL beings are fae, ALL beings are magickal, at one point or another, determined by the structure of their configuration of self at any given moment
  • Having to Learn to Accept and Love myself and ‘others’ who were receiving the very thing I felt denied, over and over and over and over again.
    • Gradually realizing the nature of patterns in the Incarnate, coming from an A Priori state.
    • feeling the fundamental sense of unfairness and ‘being forsaken’ at having to endure the ongoing confusion AND being asked to be “Grateful” for it, which felt like being grateful for being hit all the time.
    • Not understanding the nature of ‘ego’, or of self-definition, simply wading through an overwhelm of senses
  • There is What Is, and What Seems to Be.  Looking over the Story I see how I was supported and protected, though it was difficult, yet things arrived to assist me in the right timing.  This does not discount the necessity of personal growth, yet reminds of the physics of the quest, that despite what it seems like, we are supported, our path is connected to everyone else, and we live in a friendly Universe.
  • Connecting with the Deva - A constant throughout the journey home has been the connection to the deva, the elemental spirits of the Land (also known as the faeries, the kami, the menehune, and other names.  As we step deeper into the iteration of Heaven on Earth, our relationship with this, with the sacred Land and it’s relationship to our forms,is paramount.
    • Related to this are the various practices of clearing and clarity, as well as those of honouring Gaia, the Mother, which show that we are not separate, but agents of God-through-Gaia, being moved around to fulfill various roles in service to the Collective.
    • This is always a movement in consciousness, in which we are intentionally recognizing the floral consciousness that lay within us, recognizing that we are all part of an expanded ecosystem that includes our various timelines and majesties.
    • Relating with the Aina - all throughout the Quest there has been the relationship with the Aina, finding solace with the trees, with the plants, with that soothing touch of the Green and the much larger collective intelligence of Gaia
    • Plant allies along the Quest - Constantly touching the plants with a loving connection, talking to them, feeling them speaking to me and having conversations, hearing them resonating with me
  • Recognizing the “Mythica” - the arrangement of elemental qualities which forms the state of being of access and subtle awareness
  • Gradually deepening into “What is the nature of Divination?” and how it relates to the unfoldment of one’s sacred Path on their journey towards Heaven on Earth.
    • Seeing how I was meant to study Divination, which moved into an exaltation of Discernment through the application of the yoga of Story.
  • Magick of Lightning and other Devic forces
    •  Shazam - invocation to transform the self into it’s higher Aspect
    • Wielding Lightning - witnessing the progression of Fire magick into Lightning, the Divine instructing Michael Ravenwood to invite me to wield lightning
    • Catching lightning - using my powers and affinity with the deva to snapshot a lightningbolt, using that to amplify my magicks in effort to clear the patterns and have access through healing the defilements (though I didn’t call them that at the time)
    • Drawing on the deva of Story, Song & Dance in the lightning as a childe
    • Continued realmsign of Thor, Zeus, and other “mythological” aspects
    • The teachings of the rain - The rain-deva and storm-deva as my best friends growing up, who gave me clarity and protected me from the vibrations of the people.
      • The moment in NYC when the lightningbolt struck, and everything froze in a moment of Timelessness, where I could see the individual raindrops falling.  This would come up time and time again, as the rain-deva showed me the nature of the waters of self, the sense that we were all coming from ‘heaven’ into ‘earth’ in a cycle of repetition, in which entire REALITIES were wrought around the substance of the raindrop, frozen in Time, yet changing, rippling out with other raindrops on the oceanscape of being
  • Gradually realizing we are the Goddesses/Gods - Over time, the vague perception
  • Clearing the Distortions / Sexual energy / Pyramid to Round Table - A huge part of the underlying movement of the Quest over Time has been the clearing of the sexual energies, as well as the transition from the “pyramid” of hierarchical, alpha-dominant social constructs to that of the “round table”, the more yogically refined understanding of our Value and the right-relationship with one another regarding this thing.  Note - Remember to show this progression across the timeline as an archetypical force which is then proven through the Stories and timelines of other Authors in the Mythica, revealing the specifics of their journeys and how they are also processing these Collective distortions throughout the field.
    • Map this out to the human body (chakras) as well as Gaia’s body, showcasing the occurrence of these healings over time in the pollination of our movement across the planet.  
    • On the elemental/causal level, seeing the vast fields of vibrational qualities DEFINING the very nature of mortal relationships, in which we are experiencing defiled or redeemed relationships with those vibrations,which create our selves, which then embody our circumstance
Question - When in the timeline did I truly deepen into the understanding that most beings were not Realized and their entire point of view was suspect? It has to do with clarity of vibration for sure, and a movement from the naivete of simply believing beings into a more sovereign aspect.
Such reminds that a big part of the freedom from the patterns of that aspect of the Creation was recognizing the feeling-tone within the Self and the LOOOOONG period of not feeling like I could trust my own vantage.
The Purpose of the Photos 
The photography of Into the Mythica is particular in that no photos were set up.  No models, no sets, no choreography.  No photoshop retouching.  Everything is meant to be a proof of the yoga of arriving, the witnessing that there is a beautiful, magickal World, if we are able to perceive it, able to look at it from the right angle, with the right quality of Light.
Photos would be my entry into the understanding of point-of-view.  Of the mechanics of the lens of our perception, and how to use the camera as a metaphor to help the people understand their own point-of-view and it’s horizon.  Such would be the very structured and mainstream way of showing the deeper concepts of perception and reception of the Glory.
Healing the Splinter 
In many ways, I created the Mythica to heal the condition I was experiencing, which was shifting from one reality to another, seemingly uncontrollably.  Over the years, this became a deep movement into the realms of healing and perception, coming to recognize the fundamental causes of our distortions as well as the nature of the self and the Self, which are documented in the journey to that Realization.
Deep within this was the gradual clarifying of my awareness, in which there was the direct perception of the subtle and causal fields of vibration which create our circumstance.  As I continued to clear and cleanse, the vibrational effect of anger, resentment, gratitude, Love, and other aspects became increasingly clear, demanding an ongoing alchemy in order to transform the circumstance into Heaven on Earth.
In context, once I realized that all aspects of our manifest reality were a function of the agitation or harmony within the self, I began experimentation in effort to cleanse and clear those things in effort to change the disharmonious, Shadow realities that I was moving through into something harmonic. In this way, the Journey Home is a healing Story, in which awareness gradually increased through the application of processes designed to shift between realities to Heaven on Earth.
What made this especially difficult was what I called “the storms”, the periods of maddened, almost blinding rage and disgust with the human condition in general, where I could not see, nor function, save to shake in a sense of helplessness or begrudgingly go through a seemingly endless process of recapitulation or other healing activities in effort to make the beatdown stop.
Almost total lack of nurturing & Love
Aside from the storms of rage and the inconstancy of access, the Quest was made even more difficult by an almost total lack of nurturing and soft, Loving energy towards my self in which I was isolated, rejected, and almost constantly feeling a lack of the most basic sense of soft Love, to the point where I couldn’t even understand that it existed.  Were it not for my beloved wolf North, I may never have really understood what it meant to be truly Loved.  After such initiation, I would have relationships, in which that precious Gift arrived, yet was difficult to hold onto, and constantly fighting with the Shadows and wounds around that thing which lay within my body.  And while I was graced to have relationship with some very beautiful Goddesses, the true depths of partnership and intimacy, of feeling that resonant tone, had been *extremely* rarified.  It would not be until 2012 that I even really encountered a sense of being cared for by a lover, and then in 2014 and 2015.  It was very difficult for a long time.  No cuddle puddles, beings rejecting me, not feeling received, sadness, heartbroken, the list went on and on.  For so long, it seemed as though so many others were receiving the Gift of Nurturing that I was denied, demanding that I become more and more tempered, more and more sovereign, to compensate for the almost total lack of nurturing.  Were it not for my beloved Wolf, North, I don’t know what I would have done.
This did not produce a condition of Loving the Human Condition, which, coupled with the flickering, felt as though I was abandoned and forsaken by God.  In retrospect, there is the sense of having to go through that terrible desert, to gain the Clarity that comes from such isolation and temperance.

Major Aspects of the Great Story
  • The Mother Islands - Kauai, Maui, etc. as places in the geomancy of Gaia that various Aspects of the Collective move through in order to receive codes of Heaven on Earth
    • Sense that I am in communication with the Goddess (not super-clear, but there, resonating with elemental essence)
  • The Rainbow Bridge / Dragon - A constant throughout the Great Story is the rainbow bridge, also the rainbow tribes, the rainbow hues of the self and the chakras, the idea of the hue-man, various associations of Heaven on Earth and the Rainbow Bridge, etc.  The rainbow also relates to the chakras of Gaia, which correspond to particular places in the ley lines / geomancy of the mortal plane, which relate to the timelines of the Aspects of the Collective and the journey of their selves.  Many Aspects of Gaia’s emanation (individual selves & the Collective Self) receive Visions and intuitions relating to this archetypical energy, which plays out in the subtle fields as “dragon” and “rainbow”, and relates to the causal energies underneath.
  • Heaven on Earth - A huge part of the Collective zeitgeist is the movement to Heaven on Earth.  This can be seen in many individual Aspects and their intuitions and divinations, their individual and gestalt intention, etc.  As a Collective, we are driven to embody, and thus come into Heaven on Earth through the actualization of the self.  This is deeply related to honouring Gaia, which is a redemption of the distortion of relationship (moving into right-relationship) with the Creation, much like invoking Gratitude and other subtle asanas to align with the principle that ‘God is Love'
    • Aspects of this include - right-relationship with the animals & plants in a vibrational way that allows us to receive the Gifts of Gaia, which could not be seen from a previous octave of consciousness
    • Embodiment vs. Transcendence - Central to the Collective zeitgeist is the idea that we are clearing the patterns within our self, embodying the Gift that we bring to the World, which is the opposite movement to the previous spiritual paradigm which often involved sublimating or dissolving/transcending the self in effort to diminish the self-identification with the self, which creates rigidities with conditions.  However, this can easily lead into self-denial and other distortions, and the thrust of the Mythica & the Journey Home is more about Loving the self and clearing those patterns so as to have access to the natural flow rather than a contrivance of spiritual rhetoric
  • Guardians of the Galaxy / Gaia - Recognizing that the pantheon of beings I am encountering are the Guardians of Gaia and the Galaxy, coming forth to transform the consciousness of the planet

The Journey Home Chronology
2002 - The Call to Adventure
Overview - Deeply in what would later be called the realms of Shadow, I am striving to understand the human plane, which is very, very distant from my natural state.  Everything hurts during this time.  Overwhelm, confusion, I simply do not understand the mortal plane.  At this point, I am living in an apartment paid for by a wealthy-yet-emotionally-abusive father, trying to find stability in an endlessly shifting canvas of perception and consciousness.  There is a sense of rage, drowning in a World of patterns that I cannot digest.
  • Guardian of the Goddesses -
    • Invited to a gathering of magick by Kiana Love w/the Goddesses, sense of being a Guardian for the Goddesses
  • The Fairytale Brigade - 
    • Confusion & overwhelm in New York city, major anger & flickering.  Recognition that I must do something else in order to survive.
    • Knowing the deeper magick is out there and choosing to leave the City
    • Overwhelmed in New Yorke, feeling the chaos and confusion.  Flickering between realms.  Barely able to hold consistency.
    • Encountering Delerium in the fields
    • Wandering through Central Park and other areas, feeling the Deva Loci of New York, feeling York herself, the people as movements of her substance
    • Going to comic book stores on the regular, feeling the underlying texture of the prana
  • Pacha Mama
    • The Mother Vine (Grandmother Ayahuasca) - First experience with Grandmother Ayahuasca.  I am led to leave the ritual and wander into the forest.  There is a moment of fear, and then I plunge into the darkness, choosing Valor
    • This is my first encounter with the idea of a ‘guru’, of some being sitting on a dias while other beings regard them.  It is strange to me, for it does not feel to be a sovereign thing.
  • Iron & Fire -
  • The Garden Island - Receiving codes of Light from the Mother Island (Kauai)
    • Magick Application - Learning Huna-style magick from Serge King, feeling the textures of the Land speaking to me, filling me with energies.  Feeling the textures of the Dreamscape, deeply understanding what Serge is talking about.  Amazed that someone can charge $2,000/person for a 2 week escapade, realizing that this is a viable way to give & receive Value
      • Meeting the Mountain Elf, scenting her essence blending with the trees
    • Mountain Elf / Journey to Kalalau - We hear of a magickal community, deep in the valley of Kalalau.  Continuing with the deep resonance, Mountain Elf and I make our way along the Na Pali coastline trail.  In my naivete, I expect to find some kind of magickal towne or city, like a Shamballa, only to discover a number of outlaws and earthen hippies who nonetheless possess magick, though not what I expected.

2003 - The Garden Island
  • The Face of Shiva -
    • Kings & Queens of Kauai -
    • Sai Baba - Led to India to visit to Ashram of Sai Baba, major feeling-tone in the field, increase in both mine and my companions powers for a moment, which synchronized with the generation of a lingam by the avatar
      • Deeply enraged at Millicent, having to process huge amounts of energy on the flight back.  It is terribly difficult, breathing through it as best I can.
    • Walsh appears - journey into the magick, visiting Kauai
  • The Kauai Kings -
    •  Soothing from the deva of Kauai, connection with the Land, connecting with the applied arts of inner transformation in the form of Huna - seeing life as an adventure
    • The Idea comes through that I am witnessing something, though it is vague at the time, I know shooting photos is the way.  I receive the intention to only witness the photos, though I am unsure why this is given to me at the time.
    • Diving into the Waters, recognizing this as an act of diving into my emotions (early and blurry recognition that we live in the holographic radiance of our own Self)
  • Firedance - 
    • Led to Witchvox —> Kinko’s —> Firedance gathering on the western coasts, in a place called ‘Santa Cruz’ Led through series of synchronicities to gathering of Fire magickians in the mountains
      • First encounter of - Oberon & Morning Glory Ravenheart, Carl Bridge, Jeff & Abby McBride, Alicia Altair, Robin Sol, Julie Woods
      • Invoking Pan - sign of twin pigs underneath the Stars and the feeling of that Universal Presence of the Wild Wood
      • McBride approaching me, my feeling of the energies in the telepathic field.  Silently saying, “Not again.  Please, not again.  I just want to heal” and having to deal with the declarations of personal power and authority in the space nonetheless.  He claims his name means ‘Master of Ceremonies’.  I don’t care.  I just want the energetic underneath to stop hammering on my senses.
  • Ravenhaven - 
    • Sanctuary granted - Given sanctuary by the Ravenhearts.  Shared recognition of the splinter and sacred between Julie Woods and my self
    • Sacred Waters -  Witnessing the parallel between the Water energies and the telepathic, Oberon shares with me the idea of the stranger in a strange land
  • Blackrock - Phoenix Rising -
  • Neon Isis -
    • Mythic Photography - First appearance of Rebecca / Gentle Doe - Witnessing the play of Light (the Deva) and our forms, seeing the Goddess behind Rebecca’s surface form
  • Shangri-Lafayette - 
    • Shangri-Lafayette -
      • Faerie support - Great Oak protecting me outside of window
      • Many negative, confused, self-destructive thoughts
      • issues with CeCe, she eventually leaves with her girlfriend and I wish her well, trying to soothe the energies so that the distortions and the discomfort in the field stop
  • The Coven of Jesters - 
    • Blaze, Wave, the Quiet Witch, which leads to Elezar
  • Receiving healing from the Mother Island of Kauai, being led to the magickians of the FireDance through intuition

2004 - Academy Year I
Overview - Following Gentle Doe (Rebecca) to the mountains of Tahingaard, I encounter a kind faerie oracle who feels deeply resonant.  Getting down on one knee in the classic tradition, I ask her to train me in the Ancient Arts.  Graciously, she accepts, and opens up the Academy, where I will study Divination and a mixture of Faerie and Lakota traditions for four years, gradually deepening into an understanding of the elements that make up the natural World - progressing over the next fifteen years into an understanding of the self, realms, and the realization of our inherent Divinity in the blossoms of Heaven on Earth.
  • Dragons of Pele -
    • Deep ritual with Pele - 
  • Argonaut Mythic -
    • Vision - Seeing the journey of the Argonauts in the modern mythos
    • Applied Magicks - Using my powers to weave through the crowd, sensing the densities of the people with my eyes closed, in effort to reach my bag & prove the accuracy of my perception
  • The Academy of the Ancient Arts -
    • Seeking Magick - Sensing a tone of resonance with LeFaye, I get down on one knee, asking to be taught in the ancient traditions.  In response, she graciously opens the Academy, taking on both Lady Ash and Lady Cassandra alongside my self as students.
      • It is here I am given ‘Thorn’, a magickal blade enchanted with the endurance of the Elk-totem by my teacher’s husband, himself an avatar of the Aspect of Cerronus
    • Understanding the Elements of Nature - Learning the cycles of the mortal plane, going into divination, the tarot, runes, astrology, etc.
    • Feeling the mythical unfoldment, of being led to an Academy of Magick and resonance with a Faerie ally
    • What am I? - Many inner questions over my nature.  The Earth plane seems so alien.  I continue to wonder, am I a human being? A faerie? A djinn? Why are things the way they are for me?
  • Return to the Circle of Fire - 
    • Applied Magicks - Feeling the tones of the ‘Circle of Fire’, elementally.  Symbols & sigils that feel layers removed from the elemental energies of the Deva that I live within / thankful to encounter other magickians again
  • Wizards in Winter - 
    • Oberon comes up to the Academy
  • The Muppet Mansion - 
  • Flicker & Rain -
    • minor but potent misuse of sexual energy, ruining a friendship.  Never forgotten as a lesson.
    • Pattern in the Reflection - Deep anger and frustration, feeling isolated, beings having issues with me and me with them

2005 - Academy Year II
Academy Overview - 
  • Feeling as though I am conscripted by God, that I do not have a choice but to do all this healing and work, and not understanding WHY
  • Continuing at the Academy, facing the inner patterns of anger and dominance, of sexual energies and other patterns
    • Gaining discernment into the nature of divination as a discernment and interpretation of the energies of the self
  • Deeply learning Divination, clarifying the various elemental energies that make up this reality through a variety of divination tools
  • Pattern & Reflection - Endless hours of frustration & process - so much anger towards the human condition, confusion, irritation boils up through me.  It feels I am in a constant landscape of Shadows
  • Realization that I am deeply agitated and angry at the human condition and yet being angry about it only makes it worse.  An early revelation that I have had to revisit over and over and over again over time, trying to find acceptance for what seemed an assaultive vibration
  • Earth-related processes are nearly incomprehensible.  I am unsure as to the nature of manifestation.  There is great fear that the anger and frustration that I feel towards the World will create negativity for me in my life.  I feel a though I am DEMANDED to find resolve with something that feels like an ongoing assault on my senses.
  • Tome - The Chronicles of Amber - a book which describes the movement across ‘Shadows’, leading to a more primal World called ‘Amber’.  As I work through the divination at the Academy, the resonances beneath this play out for me as the very journey through the realms of the Mythica.  As a  token of such energies, this tome will play out multiple times on the journey through Shadow to the Brightlands.
  • Isis Oasis (The Last Unicorn) - 
    • Following the trail of magick, I visit the Gorilla King and the Last Unicorn in the realms of a place called “Healdsburg'
  • The Frost Labyrinth -
    • Deeply angry - Working for weeks on a frost labyrinth, moving through the frozen water/emotions within the Self in effort to clear.  Attended by the shadowbeasts (Misoon & Tonkay)
  • Matsubadojo -
    • So difficult to find stillness.  Facing the anger and fear of being overwhelmed. Forcing myself to face it over and over and over again, determined to fight back.  Cultivating the triangle into the circle.  Cultivating the deep Masculine energies of relentlessly moving forward despite obstacles
      • finding Sensei House worthy as a teacher, showing both firmness and graciousness, unlike the Aikido classes at the YMCA
    • Deva Yoga - Learning Misogi Water Cleansing
    • Adam Madera - Appears in the field, clearing the snow as a brother, and we do Misogi in the cold Waters of Tahoe
  • Vedic Astrology reading - I visit a prominent Vedic astrologer.  They reveal that mine is a pattern they have never seen before.  A spread in which I have no karma.  Curious, I ask, ‘what is my life purpose then?’ And they reply, ‘to teach the siddhi.'
  • Elezar and the Challenge of the Masculine - A major story-point happens here as Elezar challenges me, and I take it as a full-on challenge *to the death*.  It is here I am living with Jimmy in Tahoe City.  The whole affair triggers a huge wound with the Divine Masculine and Dominance, in which I have a transcarnate sense that if I defeat him, the bodies switch, and then “I” am defeated in another form, and it just goes round and round and round.  It was a series of feelings and images, a gnosis (direct knowing), which prompted me to head to the Mother Islands to clear the patterns with her Graces

2006 - Academy Year III
 
Academy Overview - 
  • The Tarot as a Map of one’s current energies - As I am deepening into the divinatory arts, the question arises, what are we reading, when we do a tarot spread? This combines with a sense of the SAME pattern going on with multiple beings in different spreads, which is beginning of a sense of Collective patterns and Collective consciousness.
  • Elemental perception of the radiance of archetypes around the Self as a reflection of it’s own substance
  • Working diligently, holding ritual space, healing the animals, doing tarot, focusing on the magick, doing my best to find discernment in the overwhelm of energies
  • I am recognized as a magickal prodigy, yet for me, its the only thing that actually makes sense in the Incarnate plane
  • Earth-related issues continue to be an issue.  It seems I can barely grasp the nature of Earth magicks, and am frustrated by this.  Recognizing that such may simply be outside my understanding, I choose to focus on that which I am adept at.  I remember standing in front of a stove for long periods of time, trying to understand that I simply cut things up and heat them, creating meals.  Like so much of the Earth plane, it flickers in and out of my awareness
  • Pushing myself to understand how to create fires and make food.  Everything seems so strange and alien
  • There is the deepening feeling-tone that I wish to help the people by proving that we can change our circumstance
  • Harm to None -
    • A major point on this is when I am challenged at the Academy and, keeping my word over causing no harm, I head off to Hawaii, to receive clearings from the Divine Mother.
    • Anger at being challenged in a place where I had felt safe fills me.  I travel to the sacred islands, and am led to the elves, as well as a showing of a spider’s shadow, much larger than itself, reminding me that things are smaller than they appear
    • Meeting the White Elves in synchronicity, seeing the unfoldment of the underplanes of the Mythica, the appearance of beings aligned with the energies of the Land and of Abundance.    
  • Estrella - 
    • Witnessing the manifestation of the Norse/Faerie energies on my Path.
    • Encountering the Pilgrim and walking the spiraling Paths of the World Tree together.
    • Meeting the Yoruba incarnations and making arrangements for a magickal sword to be created.  I am recognized as an avatar of Shangol.
  • Blinking Sun -
    • Application of Magick - Travel with Walsh across the World.  Applying the magick of resonance on my baggage.  Planning to receive the Gauntlets of Sun & Moon from Copperchris.  Doing the spellwork to be invisible, subtle, while resting at the airport.
    • Encountering the Galactic.  Feeling the resonance of this vibration moving through the field
  • Enter the Labyrinth -
    • First time at Labyrinth of Jareth masquerade ball.  So excited, a reminder of the joy of the movie as a childe.  Expecting that everyone there will be flush with magick, in their God-essence.  I am so deep in Faerie at this point that I cannot see where most beings are at, it simply does not exist for me, at the same time, great issues with trying to assimilate into the human condition and the Earth plane
  • Valhalla-Pennsic (The Warriors Three)  - Recognition of the Magickian archetype in me.  Meeting the Pilgrim again.  Doing ritual, being led to put on magickal raiment and then arriving at a labyrinth, the archetype of the traveling Prince/King and his entourage.
    • Recognizing that I am deeply moving through the fields of the Deep Masculine, encountering avatars of those realms. 
  • Afara -
    • Recognizing that I am traveling through the realms of the Divine Masculine
    • Receiving “Talon"
  • Princes of the Desert - 
    • Continuing clearing with Blaze.  Wishing to redeem any issues left undone.
    • Encounter Caius in the field
    • Feeling as though I am trapped in the Web of Fate
    • Application of Magick l - Trying again to cast a spell to be in the companionship that I deserve.  Still nothing.
  • A Gathering of Heroes -
    • Meeting the Mythmaker - First appearance of Hjeron O’Sidhe, met whilst sharing double-swords in the festival realms.  He leads me to the Mythmaker bus and a hidden marketplace of the Galactic.
    • First appearance of Noah McLain, Forest Schrodt, Solus Soulsinger, Zor the Fyregod, and many others
    • Clearing the Masculine - Invoking firmness with Zor trying to put on my lion shaping
  • The North Star -
    • Application of Magick - Casting the spell on the New Moon —> Waxing Moon —> Full Moon which results in being led to an avatar of Grandmother Wolf, where I first encounter my familiar, North the Great Beast

2007 - Academy Year IV
Overview - My sense of the realms of the Mythica continues to deepen and I feel I am mapping out the magickal World in ever-clarifying divination.  I witness the beings around me as the literal embodiments of various mythical beings, and am confused that they do not see this as well.
As this is going on, the Harry Potter series is coming out.  At this point, I have traveled so deep into Faerie that I have forgotten the way in which beings relate to the World.  The name ‘Griffyndor’ comes up, and friends are referring to me as that after my Naming, ‘Griffin’, embodying the Guardian of the Day and the Night.
More and more I am recognizing the nature of Story, through films and media, I am Seeing something, an underplanes of energy, related to the Divination, the pure essence from which all Stories are made.  I continue to go to comic book shoppes, drawing on the prana of Stories, which feels to be the texture that fuels my powers
  • Apprentices - Lammas Day -
  • The Elphinstone Coat -
    • Following the signs, receiving the Elphinstone Coat
    • Recognition of the elvish undercurrent, re-encountering Copperchris, Ocean Ulantia and Wendy Neverland.  Further connections with Sir Ennis and a witnessing of the path between the elvish home and their outpost through the forest, deepening the sense of the realms as-they-manifest on the surface of the Worlds.
  • The King of Trolls - 
    • Recognition of the Realms - Led to Mac, who I divine as a Knight w/the Rabbit totem and a noble, he reveals Scottish connections, further showing the underlands, the Worlds beneath the World.  encountering the King of Trolls and other aspects PROVING the Law of Reflection.  Confluence of elves, dwarves, trolls, all showing the World of the Mythica, beneath.  Continuing to try to understand my aspect and the mortal plane.
    • Mapping out the Tarot of Life - More and more, there is the expansion of the idea that we are living in the energetic hologram of ourself, as I continue to encounter beings who SHARE particular vibrational qualities with me in
    • Wielding Lightning - Catching a lightningbolt with my camera in wielding with my elemental resonance w/the lightning
  • The Rose of Story -
    • Deva Yoga - Standing in a weave of Stories, invoking Gratitude to Lady Story, I am given a Rose as the Deva of the City of Angels says, “I support Your Story"
  • Apprentices 
  • Shamballa - 
    • Dropping my swords in effort to connect with the people / less defensive
    • Deva Yoga - Singing my Voice - overwhelming people, getting angry with them, then going to the Water to heal the agitated distortions in my field resulting from that anger
    • The Mud Buddha - Proclaimed as a “King’ when he is “just a man”, I receive a blessing from a Mud Buddha whilst in the magickal dancing and deep in the realms
  • Day of Peace -
    • Divine Synchronicity - After purchasing ‘Whim’ (by a Great Oak tree) after the dream-vision I received, I am led to the City of Clouds and clearing any potential distortions in the field with Blaze by escorting his lover to the Day of Peace, I am led to encounter Hjeron O’Sidhe and the Mythmaker in perfect synchronicity
  • Calliope’s Dream -
    • receiving Calliope’s Dream, the first sovereign home i’ve had to travel across the realms with.  It is difficult for me to understand the mechanics of the hydraulic lift and other aspects, yet Cerronus helps me with his Earth-awareness
  • synchronicity.  In witnessing a series of readings over time with different people, I receive the unclarified (beginning) sense that we are sharing something
  • Becoming very annoyed with beings offering me advice on things.  It feels uncomfortable in my energy, yet recognize (begrudingly) that sometimes it’s helpful.  This will eventually become a deep focus into right-entry
  • Deep rages and anger,.  Flickering between feeling helpless and deeply elemental.  Spending much time with North the Wofl.  Striving to learn perfect pitch as a reference for the specific textures of vibrations.
  • Flickering in and out of realms where I am super-enraged at God and motivating to do the Mythica in order to *protect* people from what I am convinced is a cruel Divinity
  • War with the Earth - The sense of being in wartime with the Earth continues, in and out, as if I am fighting, constantly, against the very nature of the mortal condition.

2008 - Mythmaker
Overview - The recognition that I am living in the reflections of my own energies are becoming more clear, as I continue with the thesis of witnessing my Path, which leads me to the realm of the elves, which occurs for me as a settlement closer to the realm of faerie in which I exist
  • Holt of the Elves -
    • Heading out from the Academy - Heading to the realms of the elves, feeling that I may be ACCEPTED there as it is close to the faerie realms where I am living.  Tracking the journey northwards.  Learning the pattern of Leadership, witnessing Hjeron in action
    • Water leakage in Calliope’s Dream, I cannot understand how things function in terms of the tubing and the circles, which is very frustrating yet par for the course in the Earth plane.
    • Pirate’s Cove - 
      • First appearance of Don Schiff, recognized in the subtle planes as a Guardian and Rabbit.  As I cannot hold onto the energy of “practice” as people define it, I must try to do what I can on stage, immediately, facing the inner question.  Don stands with me, a deep ally.
      • Hands of Peace - Despite the ongoing attempted alpha nonsense at the Pirate’s Cove, I continue to choose the peaceful route and not use my hands for violence.  I feel I am granted easement, without hassle, because of the righteousness of my decision
  • Come the Mythmaker -
    • Invoking a spell for Love - using the altar created for me by Adam Madera, I cast a Love spell in effort to align with my proper beloved.  It fails, though I have a tryst with a beautiful goddess, it leaves me feeling confused and wondering, and I pull back into myself, in effort to clear the energies
    • Stewarding the Myth  - Facing the question of trust, fellowship, brotherhood, right use of power.  Doing my best to honour Hjeron and his vision whilst staying solid with my gut feeling
  • Faerieworlds -
    • It feels like I’ve come to the Faerie Market from Stardust.  I am just understanding that I am coming from deep Faerie, from the elemental planes.
    • Meeting the Froud’s, recognizing them as royalty, as well as the various tribes of Faerie I meet in the event
    • Striving to clear the sexual energies and not cause suffering yet wishing connection
  • Nymphs and Apples - 
    • Divine Synchronicity - Led to a gathering at the base of a mountain where I encounter McLain, ferrying faerie-folk with Zephyr along the rainbow bridge
    • Witnessing the Mythica - considering, how did I arrive in the right moment to witness the Nymphs & Apples? The sense of synchronicity increases
  • Honouring the Kami -
  • The Shire of Ashland - Led to the Shire of Ashland following Julie Avena, light romantic energies but nothing major.
  • Ash & Fire - 
    • Arriving early with Lady Ash, trying once again to invoke a Love spell and heal the isolation.  Ash and I share an understanding that we are laying down the energies around the Fire energies in our early arrival
    • Recognizing that the firebenders are the current iteration of that aspect of magick, given access to invoke the energies at the base of the Burning Man
    • Rage at Former Teacher, invoking a Fire lance, feeling it burn myself.  The nature of our unity clarifies further for me, further in raging me that I must endure such things and turn the other cheek in which to avoid the feedback loop of returning fire with fire.  In the fields, I can feel the angelic host, the collective consciousness, witnessing.I find a portal through a painting of an angelic which I use to return to my angelic aspect.
  • Changing of the Guard -
    • The passing of Misoon, beloved ally, recognizing that North has been trained by a noble beast

2009 - Faerie Roads
Overview - I leave the mountains of Tahingaard (Tahoe), finding my way to the nexus of Avalonian peoples known as ‘Ashland’.  Here, McLain and I live together in Avalon Grove.  The sense of definition of the underlands of the World continues to deepen as I recognize the textures of the peoples of Avalon incarnate in their current form.  Receiving a Vision and eager to prove the principle that we live in the holographic reflection of our own essence, I am led to test the theory by bringing McLain and Patience to Scotland on the ‘Faerie Roads’ adventure, where we are met with the ambassadors and allies of Faerie.
Here, the longing for companionship and connection continues, as I witness so many of my allies in Love or in partnership while I continue to feel alone save for my beloved wolf, North  In the end of the year, I leave the Academy, disheartened by the way in which my voice and perception is being disregarded.  The idealism I have held towards my mentor dissolves into a simmering rage and sense of betrayal, yet even within this I sense how she herself has been afraid and feeling betrayed, and that it is shared, much like the distortions of dominance and submission that were felt with Elezar
  • The Winter Ball - 
    • Meeting with McLain to head to the Winter Ball, leaving the mountains of Faerie to connect.  Re-encountering the peoples of Faerieworlds, feeling the resonance with members of that tribe.  Toby Froud gifts me a pair of faerie wings, the energetic resonances of which radiate in the subtle realms of the Mythica.  I consider it a beautiful gift.
  • The Winter Road -
    • Traveling the Earth roads, the Northern road.  Feeling that the movement is headed towards community, towards the connection with the Earth plane, towards the Shire of Ashland
  • Avalon Grove - (including the Dan of Song)
    • Arrival with Calliope’s Dream in Ashland, led to a Scottish ally who is the landlord for a piece of property with a grove of trees.  McLain and I end up living in the same space, parking our bus & trailer on the Land
    • Recognizing that the ‘elves’, ‘hobbits’ and other faeriekin exist here in community, closer to the Commonwealth than the fae mountains where I have been living.
    • Mushrooma - Working with Julie Avena on the Mythica, I am going deep into the proclamation that we are the Gods and Goddesses, and that events happen to us in synchronicity based on our vibration. Leaving her place, I give Gratitude to the Rain and Storms for our resonance.  Out of nowhere, I encounter Mushrooma, God of Mushrooms, appearing in the field.  I bring the evidence back into the space with Avena.
    • Tome - Stealing Fire from the Gods - A divination into the way Stories are understood in the Commonwealth comes to me in the form of the book “Stealing Fire from the Gods”.  The Author, James Bonnet, is kind enough to indulge a phone call from me as I attempt to find purchase for the Mythica in the World of media as it exists in the Commonwealth.
  • Great Pan Walking -
    • Asked to embody the aspect of Pan for the priestesses of Ashland.  Encountering Merril the Magickian.  Sensing the textures of Avalon, of Faerie, in the dancing beings performing ritual.  Shooting photos, feeling the dancing w/the priestesses
  • Faerie Roads -
    • Vision / Law of Reflection - Given a vision, I bring Noah and Patience to Scotland, in which we witness the Law of Reflection in effect, that we are encountering the aspects in accordance with our own substance. 
    • Kings Road -
      • Meeting a Knight of Fire, offered sanctuary at Bilston Glen, a proof of the Law of Reflection that we are led to a zone thick in the Green
      • Meeting Adam Macintosh, recognition through sharing of Copperchris and the guild of Stoneshapers
    • Water Deva - Burning with an imbalance in Fire, I connect eventually with the Water Deva, working to soothe the energies within.  There is so much rage at God for the limitation of awareness.  Feeling as though we are conscripted to suffering by not having consistent access to make the right decisions.
      • Stopping at pub on the way to Rosslyn Chapel (Grail Knights/Kings on Quest) 
    • Vision of the Grail -
      • demanding forgiveness, which leads to a double rainbow, then more Abundance than we had encountered before, including the blossoming cherries.  A sign of the Physics of the Quest
    • Findhorn
      • Receiving intuition that We are the Garden.  This is a progression towards the Revelation of the Idea that we are pollen for Gaia, moved about the World in service to something larger (which will not clarify until years later, though this is one of the first revelations of that deeper Idea coming through)
      • Deva Yoga - Connecting with Randolph’s Leap, feeling the energies of the Deva/Faerie.  
  • Misogi in the Mountains -
    • Deva Yoga / Misogi - Continuing the healing of the imbalance in Fire.  Sweat lodges, misogi with the Water deva in the mountains.
  •  The Alchemists Conference -
    • Leaving the Academy - The feeling that I am not being met or regarded properly continues.  witnessing a lack of recognition of shared wisdom and a lack of a quality in appreciation of one’s gifts, I am demanded to leave the Academy.
      •  Learning the lesson that everyone has feet of clay.
  • The Vedic Realms -
    • The Shoe Tree
      • leaving the Academy, I encounter a Shoe Tree on the Path.  Recognizing this as a surface manifestation of the movement into a new chapter on my journey, I sense that I must leave a pair of shoes as an offering, to clarify that I am entering a new chapter and letting go of what no longer applies.
    • Pancha Karma -Deeply trying to understand What I am, why I have always felt so different, moving through the magick, and how I can heal, coming into alignment with the earth plane.  Reading Percy Jackson (The Lightning Thief) and feeling a resonance with the idea of being demigods
      • Weeks of Ayurvedic cleansing, investigating the texts of that healing modality.  Beginning to understand that not everyone has a definitive connection with the deva
      • Deva Yoga / Misogi  - feeling the energy of Crestone, senses of the Ley, deep Winter.  Walking barefoot through the snow, using the deva yoga/misogi to clear the self
      • Clearing the ancestral fields of Avalon - receiving healing and working with Arthurian energies and ley lines where I am given sanctuary

 
2010 - Lands of Enchantment
Overview - Leaving the Vedic realms, I end up in a place called Santa Fe, ‘The Land of Enchantment’.  Here, I continue to document the journey, striving to hold my attention and clarity on the flickering sense of the Worlds beneath the World.  The relationship between the elements within my own self and my Path continue to clarify as the Law of Reflection becomes ever more apparent. As the year progresses, I will continue to test the theory, witnessing where I am led along the Path and clarifying the nature of realms.
It is here that the Mythica brand glyph is created, where the ‘Postcards from Faerie’ concept begins to deepen into something more.
  • The McArthur Spellbook -
    • Tome  - Acquiring the McArthur Spellbook
    • Intentionally burying the hot energy into the ground with ritual
    • Sense of the bardic and the Scotland w/Clan McArthur
  • Invading the Heart -
    • Return to dancing as a source of connection.  Appreciations of the priestess position that Myra is holding for the people.  Meeting Anasma, Goddess of Dance
    • Meeting Bonnie, who introduces me to a lightshaper named Richard Mueller.  Such is my first experience with the World of design and mercenary artists, in which the Mythica glyph, compass, and an online dynamic book are created.  Such is the seed of the Mythica beginning to sprout.
  • Path of the Bear -
    • Reunion with the Argonauts
    • Deva Yoga - Misogi in the high mountains in effort to cleanse w/the deva
    • Encountering Bear totem in the people all across the board
    • “Nothings changed” - staying by the river w/my wolf contemplating the relationship to God/Goddess, knight on crusade
  • Truth & Glamour -
    • Return to the labyrinth.  Feeling like an elemental faerie coming to the city.  Coming to realize the nature of costumes and levels fo embodiment (though it continues to flicker in & out)
    • Striving to understand the earth plane and the nature of costuming & glamours
  • Friends of the Faeries -
  • Realms of the Beloved -
    • Feeling that I’ve arrived in a realm of deep sanctity, of connection to God, with high vibrations, amongst the tribe
    • Witnessing beings cuddling up together, feeling isolated and deeply magickal all at once
  • Livingwell -
    • Proof of the Law of Reflection happens as I follow the signs which lead me to Livingwell, a bastion in the realms of Faerie
    • Rising of deep distortions in the sexual energies, a lesson in non-violence from the Deva
    • Testing the Law of Reflection  - Arrival at Livingwell as further proof that we arrive in synchronicity with “others” who share the same energy pattern with us.
    • Healing the Sexual Distortions - In Livingwell, the sexual pattern comes up, and I witness the textures of the field, the connection with the deva, informing me of the defilement of retribution or unforgiving thoughts on the most subtle of levels
    • Going deeper into the proof that we live in the reflection of ourselves and that we arrive in entire realities based on the synchronicity of our movement 
  • Song of the People -
    • Choosing not to go to the City of Dreams (element of Fire) and instead to go towards the Earth & the Water in the form of the ‘Singing Alive’ event
    • Reappearance of Tre,the McNutts.  First appearance of Shannon.
  • The Fairy Seer -
    • Led by Fern DeFaye to Ba Sing Se, encountering Orion Foxwood, “The Fairy Seer”.  Witnessing the connection with the Bridge Brothers (Troll makers of magick items)
      • Connection to Faerie / Witnessing the pattern beneath the pattern
    • Feeling the trio of magickians of Ba Sing Se as sacred beings at the base of the formant volcano in this “City of Portals"
  • Djedi of the New Republic -
    • Reconnecting with Ciardha (after the Raindance encounter w/Forest).  
  • Paladin of Dragons -
    • Perfect Synchronicity - Led back to the Shire of Ashland, encountering Tor Jormungander at the Cultureworks temple, fellow avatar of Avalon.  Witnessing his invocation of Dragons which brings McLain on his motorbike.  Tor reveals his efforts to showcase the chakras of Gaia
  • Conjuror Way -
    • feeling the energies of “New Orleans”, a city under Water, thick with the energies of the living and the dead.  Sensing the textures that underlie many of the “magickal arts” as are presented in this Age.

2011 - Roads to Eden
Intent on clarifying how to heal both myself and others simultaneously, a tome arrives called ‘Zero Limits’, which proves the physics of the quest (that we are given information that we need at the appropriate moment).  I continue to witness the Law of Reflection, that we are living inside the holographic representation of our own essence.  Though things are difficult, there is a sense of forging my way across the underlands of the mortal plane.  There is journey with Ciardha throughout this year, in which much Fire plays itself out and I start to have sense of the discipline required to transform the conditions of the mortal plane.
  • Ba Sing Se - (post conflict w/Forest & hanging w/Noah and the magickians)
  • Coming of Age (Katana) - 
  • The House of Clay - 
    • Tome - Neville Goddard - Idea of “feeling it as if it’s already happened” comes up in the field.
    • Inconsistency of access continues, flickering in and out.  The concept of ‘daily practice’ is difficult and alien to digest. 
    • Tome - “Zero Limits”  - Asking the Universe for help, an intuition comes which leads to ‘Zero Limits’, a book by Joe Vitale on the Ho’oponopono technique of changing one’s reality.
    • Application of the technique leads to a vision to head to Los Angeles
    • Cripple Creek -
      • Learning from the Deva - Unable to digest the interpretation of music by most humans, I commune with the Deva of the Wood at Cripple Creek, gradually building my way up through instruments, coming in for an hour a day to connect with them and increase my skill.
  • House of Bliss - 
    • Allies in Faerie - Granted sanctuary by Priestess Regan in the ‘House of Bliss’, showing once again that Faerie supports me through her avatars.  The Circle House appears once again on craigslist, and I arrive in perfect timing to meet the landlord and move in.
  • The Topanga Canyon (House of Circles) - 
    • Yogananda / The Circle House - Arrival in sacred Topanga, at a house flush with the vibrations of Paramahanda Yogananda
      • Journey with Ciardha through the realms - starting to feel the pattern of discipline in this realm, difficult to hold onto.  Consciousness constantly moving, overwhelmed.  Not understanding the necessity of practices in my ignorance of the human condition
      • Wanting more vitality / issues with self-discipline (understanding & application)
  • Alchemy of the Taoist - (Mantak Chia, etc.) -
  • Queen and King - (including Cripple Creek)
    • Gifting McLain - After the immolation of Zephyr, I gift an enchanted lyre to McLain
  • Brothers in Fire - 
    • Vision - I am given a vision to go to a party in Malibu.  Here, in perfect timing, I encounter Michael Ravenwood, one of my fellow avatars in Fire. 🔥 
  • The Master of Breath -
    • Ciardha arrives, bringing with him the knowledge of Serumnynjitsu / Neo-Taoist practices with a focus in Air 💨 
    • Applied Magicks / Deva Yoga - In wielding with a devic ally, closing my eyes and walking down the mountain, stretching sensations out through my feet.  Spirit of a local elder assists me in the ethers.
  • Eden Muse - 
    • Deeply frustrated with the incarnate plane, I am once again burning with Fire and anger at God.  It is here that Michael Ravenwood calls me, inviting me to a gathering at a place called ‘Eden Muse'
    • A meeting with the Galactic, featuring Michael Ravenwood, Ciardha, and some of the visionaries of ‘Elevate Films’.
  • Bards of Faerie -
    • Having to heal myself on my own yet again, sign of the scarab
  • The Rainbow Dragon -
    • Deva - Rainbow Dragon appears in the field, feeling-tone of the rainbow energies approaching.  First appearance of the Brighthome
  • The Rainbow Tribes -
    • First appearance of Estara Sun
    • encountering the Rainbow Gathering
  • A Faire Adventure - (Ouroborus Loop) -
    • Applied Magicks - Invoking spells to avoid being swept up by the ‘sweepers’ at dusk
  • Fire in Faerie (Circle of Fire) - 
    • Clearing - Clearing MORE sexual energy and imbalance in Fire.  Witnessing Livingwell as a nexus-point of change towards union w/the pristinity of the Deva and Heaven on Earth
  • Baptism of Water - 
    • Witnessing the Textures change - Noting to Ciardha that as we approach the location of Beloved in the Incarnate plane, that our conversation’s vibrations become more liminal, more numinous, more resonant in the approaching field in the timestream
    • Serving God’s Will - At Beloved festival, flush with the energies of the Godlands, I am driven to the Waters, to immerse myself and declare my surrender to God’s service once more.  IT is a deeply rebirthing experience.  Giving the 50mm 1.2 to Kyre.
  • Tikal - The Djedi Collective -
  • Wielding Lightning -
    • Firebending —> Lightningbending - Recognizing that the field is reflecting the current attainment of my magicks, shifting from bending Fire to bending Lightning.  Realmsign of Thor’s hammer.
  • The Faery Well -
    • Returning to Livingwell, I participate in the consecration of a faerie well w/R.J. Stewart, wielding the resonance to lay down the gridwork across the planet and weave together the human and deva realms.
  • The Mother Vine (Grandmother Ayahuasca) - Deep … DEEP and endless dancing at the Fortress of Dreams.  North joins the ritual, taking care of the people.  Singing the songs of the Vine in deep reverence.  Playing harp & flute & more for the shaman.  Invoking compassion and forgiveness for my SELF in not taking care of it’s own business and the truck getting scraped as a result
  • Return to Eden -
    • Heading to the mead bar - meeting the priestess Laura Love, who offers sanctuary and a car to rent for use on the island.
    • Consistent recognition that Ciardha and I SHARE the patterns between us, and it is improper to judge or blame each other for the unfoldment, but rather do the ho’oponopono.  Continuing to appreciate Ciardha for his efforts to model a more cleansed diet and practice, though it is difficult to focus my energies.
    • Divination - The Goddess says “Don’t blame the messenger”, and I receive an intuition while returning from Kalalau that everyone is just facilitating a message for one another
  • Aerious - 
    • Deva Healing / Sanctuary - Given sanctuary at Livingwell, I go deep into trying to understand the nature of the physical plane once more, striving to digest the nature of “food” and other mortal qualities of Earth
  • Olde World, New World -
    • A flux of energies as I move from the olde World of the fae and the pagan worlds into the new World of the Galactic, meeting the ambassadors of Onedoorland.  First appearance of Bina Zing, Elijah Parker, and Lady Endearment

2012 - Brave New World
 In which the journey to the Island of the Gods marks the deepening into the nature of ‘video production’, a pattern that I had not been able to grasp previous to that moment.  More I am recognizing that we all embody different Aspects of the energy, there is a gradual understanding that I gain more access to particular fields when I am around those Aspects
  • Onedoorland - meeting the magickian’s in the right moment, a portal to the New World.
    • Tome - The Chronicles of Amber appears in Elijah Parker’s study as I come to this place which, in the underplanes of the Mythica, appears as a nexus of many Worlds.
    • Katie Rose appears - a boon of Love and connection, helping me through the darkness
    • Synchronicity with Merril and the Toad Ceremony, in which God reveals itself to me, by my side, in the form of North, who comes up and licks my face with enduring Love
  • Convergence of the Tribes - 
    • Rainbow Waters - Releasing energies in the Water, rainbow patterns in the substrata, feeling as though i’ve been carrying a weight for so very long
  • Faehaven -
    • Faerie Allies - House is by a magickal hillside, McNutt & Maia, allies from Livingwell & Faerie come to bless the space with me (Faeriekin)
    • Vast inner hatred rises at Faehaven, demanding a crawl into the bathroom and giving Love to the Self.  It is a brutal period of deep darkness and movement through Shadow.
    • The Duke of Dorje - Duke sends an email to me as I enter the house, resolving a prophecy that came to me of assistance in the Mythica from the faeries
    • Earth allies - Deeply thankful for Katie, who embodies the Earth energies in a huge way, offering the Gifts of food and design in her majesty
  • Isle of the Gods -
    • Taking Akira, Adelaide, Katie & my self to Bali. 
    • Deva Yoga - in accordance with the intuition granted, we film some spots of Deva Yoga in it’s early incarnations, visiting sites that honour the elements
    • Temple of the Goddess - Witnessing the Dream Awakening circus in a Temple of the Goddess, seeing this in the underplanes as a sign of the movement towards the Divine Feminine (witnessing the movements in the subtle & causal planes), seeing how ‘acroyoga’ is part of the zeitgeist of the Age, embodying a collective interaction vs. the old yogas of singularity
  • Return to Blinking Sun - 
    • Clarity - Realizing that most beings don’t understand how a ‘portal’ works.
    • Invoking Earth - In a vast sandstorm, I hold the Brighthome down, invoking Earth magicks and the sensation of avatars I know from those realms in effort to balance out my seeming ineptness at the earth-aspect.  Invoking Evon and Katie as Aspects
    • return of Aya Bounoguario (sacred dancer) 
  • Unio Mystica - 
    • Casting Love spells once again in effort to break the isolation, holding the Love vibration as best I can while witnessing a mystical play put on by the peoples of Onedoorland and the Muse Mansion
    • witnessing Orion dancing through the veil, seeing how the sacred photography is related to the light of the deva/consciousness once again
  • The Goddess Temple -
    • The energies to ‘Enchanted Forest’ are blocked, sending me rather into the Shire of Ashland where I meet with the priestesses of the Goddess Temple in the Wellsprings
    • Feeling the Celtic mythos in the air, a confluence of energies around the Goddess Temple, witnessing how the ancient traditions are seeding and germinating here, led by Jumana Sophia and Graell Corsini.  First appearance of Mudfoot.
  • Lord & Lady McLain -
    • Honoured to shoot photos and witness the handfasting of brother McLain
  • Return of the Fairytale Brigade -
    • Temple of Story - Meeting with Taralee of the Fairytale Brigade in perfect synchronicity at a ‘Barnes n’ Noble’, occuring for me in the Mythica as a Temple of Story.  Such proves the Law of Reflection
  • Clans of Faerie -
  • Illumination -
    • Once more with the ritual circle first discovered at Firedance in 2003
    • scenting the various magicks, feeling them from a fae, elemental place
    • First appearance of Paradox Pollack, who is witnessed in the Mythica as an avatar of Story like myself.  In true marvel team-up style, there’s conflict amongst the heroes.
  • The Divine Mother (Beloved) -
    • First appearance of Elodie Massa.
    • Feeling the textures of the Divine Feminine, the Mother-energy, thick in the atmosphere.  A sign that I am deepening into that quality in my own self.
  • Shadows in the Green -
    • Deva Yoga - Feeling deeply betrayed by James & the Family structure - going to the Deva for healing / intentionally invoking forgiveness
    • Feeling that this geomantic location is a hot spot for me, for the transformation of these patterns.
    • Once AGAIN striving to clear the sexual energies within the field with right-action in effort to change the circumstance of frustration or suffering to our selves
    • Deep feelings of rejection and being unreceived by the ‘community’.
  • Deva by Design - 
    • Deva Allies - Storms arrive, soothing the overwhelm of my senses as I wander the outskirts of the playa away from the endless beats
    • Sensing Grey - Using my powers to feel Grey in the field through the dust, tracking the energies in the subtle planes
  • Universal Heroes - 
    • Divination - Witnessing the spread of the “Gene Keys”, seeing the integration of Taoist practices with modern ideas within the context of teaching techniques
    • Faerie Allies - First appearance of Andrea Sullivan - sharing Faerie energies
    • Questioning why beings present themselves as authorities.  Encountering the Dragon energy with Andrew Morrisey.  First appearance of Dr. Dave.
  • In Darkest Knight - 
    • Faerie Queen comes to visit me on 2012-12-21, showing that the support shows up in the right time (poq)
    • More redemption of sexual energy.  Afraid to do anything, fearful that it will continue the isolation and/or cause more suffering.

2013 - Fortune & Family
Overview - Major movements through Shadow.  Deep depressions, confusions, feeling isolated and rejected by the community.  The wound of family is deeply present.  Walking the seemingly endless darkness & rain with North.  Forging my way through Vipassana, wondering what I must do to have clarity at last through the endless shifting, striving to understand the mortal (earth) plane as a faerie creature.
My first encounter with vipassana, in which the patterns of vibration that I have been feeling my whole life are given a name - sanskara.
  • Life Visioning - I am given a vision to listen to someone named ‘Michael Beckwith’, whilst wandering the darkness with North.  The tone of the angelic host comes through, and I am willing to change
    • Wandering through Shadow.  Isolated.  Alone.  Hammered from within.  Praying to God for death and release from what felt like an imprisonment.
    • Recognition that there is an Idea that wishes to come THROUGH the Self
    • Feeling the tone
  • The Apothecary -
    • Finding Victory
    • Faerie Allies - APPRECIATED IN MY VALUE by the peoples of the Apothecary.  Reminder of Faerie allies within the City of Portals, soothing the deep sense of being unrecognized and unreceived a bit
  • The Mohawk Tea House -
    • Faerie Sanctuary -  appears, showing the Law of Reflection, as well, North and I are near the Great Forest of Portland and I have a room for $400.  Gradually, I move things about, striving to achieve some competency in the Earth plane, calling on the energies of Katie Rose as an avatar of the Earth.
    • Meeting Ra and his ally, with “Hero of 1,000 Faces” by Joseph Campbell in his bicycle.  Presenting myself as a Paladin of Faerie and am met by him proclaiming himself a King of the Elves
    • Hope - Watching ‘Man of Steel’, deep in the consciousness.  Feeling the resonance with my Aspect, sending a prayer to God that I get to embody this Hope for the People.  Ra appears at the house afterwards, recognizing that we are from that place of consciousness, of power and Grace, like kryptonians
    • Understanding the Subconscious patterns - Gradually coming to understand that all patterns exist in the subconscious, and are defining our viewpoint
    • The Compassion Key - Interactions with Edward Mannix, working the Compassion Key with the inner childe, feeling hammered by circumstance yet thankful for faerie sanctuary as the money is running out
    • The Idea of “Limiting Beliefs” - comes up in the field, which feel related to the substance of form as it is clearing.  Eventually, this becomes a question into the idea that we can manifest anything we want vs. the idea that God is the Doer and awareness precedes action (which will come out through the vessel of Michael Beckwith later in the Quest)
    • The Great Woods - Many movements through the Great Forest of the City of Portals, dictating into the iPhone in effort to record the journey (continuing to refine the spell as best I can).  Many walks with North, some healing by aligning my energy with the Trees
  • Awaken (The Deva of Seva) - 
    • Annoyed at first at feeling conscripted into service by the parameters of the event, I enjoy sharing the good energies and magick with the people.  There is a sense of vitality that comes from being in service. 
  • Temple of the Mother - 
    • Amma Chi - At last able to resonate with the Divine Mother in the form of Amma Chi.  Major victory in making it to the realms of the Divine Feminine.  First appearance of Pearl Solora Zule
  • The Ashram -
    • Clearing the Divine Masculine / Alpha Distortions - MORE issues with the defiled Masculine, demanding a test of Faith and follow-through in intuition and ho’oponopono in effort to make passage to Heaven on Earth.  More and more I am seeing that these vibrational patterns are more constant than the surface World.
    • Trusting the Path / 3 Signs  - Inquiring what to do to leave the situation as peacefully as possible, intuition tells me to head out, I receive 3 signs which lead me northwards towards the realms of Valhalla, where I intersect in perfect synchronicity with the Solstice celebration of the northern elves
  • Return to Valhalla - 
    • repairs on the Elphinstone Coat, recognizing Copperchris and Wendy Neverland as temple builders, now in service to Shamballa, which I recognize in the Mythica as the incarnation of that Idea-shape on the surface plane of awareness.
    • First appearance of Amy, who proves to be a solid ally, embodying fellowship
    • Return to the City of Portals - Using medicine to make the drive more palatable, ending up on a mountaintop with howling winds, tearing at my Qi.  Sifu Boggie offers counsel.  As I return to the City of Portals, I discover that the insurance that I had been provided for from my father’s company has been cancelled, demanding a decision whether to engage with that system or go with the intuitive arts.  I make the right decision.
  • The Ocean and the Moon - meeting faerie allies in the space of the Supermoon.  the first “cuddle-puddle” I have experienced in many years
  • Rise of the Water Phoenix -
    • Magick Application - Overwhelmed by fire liquid, unable to navigate the surface plane, using my powers to track Pearl through the darkness, scenting her faerie aspect.  Finding my way to Oberon’s Tavern, to encounter the space elf who has created a coloursphere to play with whilst the olde world musicians play around it.  A magickal zone.
    • Once again I am looking for Love and connection, yet it does not happen.
  • The Scent of Love -
    • First appearance of Elana Meta - in the food court, immediate and deep resonance / shared textures of sacred Dance.  With her, first taste and scent of Love in a long time, a sense of her precious wild and honouring her aspect within the Brighthome
  • Vipassana - recognition that sanskara/karma/dharma are all the same thing / recognizing the nature of this clearing and how it clears the lens of the Self.  A pair of bards appear to help me, revealing the Law of Reflection and the God supports us
    • Violating the wards of Vipassana - to check on some fire liquid, which further erodes the promise.  Feeling clever until a vision comes of a blacksplotation superhero a la’ ‘Verb, that’s what’s happening’ etherically yelling at me, “You’re only hurting yourself!” by breaking the rules.  The clearing works though, and more Ideas begin to be seen through the lens of the self.
    • Expunged from the City of Portals - Signs of the clearing from Vipassana arrive as I am summarily kicked out of the house I am staying, then harassed by the peoples of Portland.  Recognizing I am to leave, Paul’s Automatic graciously holds space for my truck while I take Victory and head southwards to the sanctuary of the Shire of Ashland.
  • Oberon’s Door -
    • “Thin upon the World” - Wasted and exhausted from the rejection and ordeal, I arrive at Oberon’s Tavern whereupon Lord Jordan, recognizing my state of being, proclaims that I am “thin upon the World”
    • Divination - Reading with oracle at Pranafest - “Why is this place so difficult for me?” - “You ALWAYS hate coming here” / Changing the relationship to Money
      • Re-encounter with Anna-Marie, who tells me about a Divinator that she is familiar with. 
    • Sanctuary - Offered sanctuary by fellow Light Archer David Lovere, on a street called “Wildwood'
    • Experts Academy - Focus on proper form of Abundance - I go to Expert’s Academy, in effort to understand the nature of Abundance and how to present myself and thus serve the People
  • Victory’s Last Ride - intent on changing my relationship to money, I attempt to engage in this ‘trimming’ activity that so many of the tribe engage.  Spirit has other plans though ...
    • Knights & Churches
      • As I park Victory on 4th street in the City of Clouds, I hear a banging on the door late at night.  Immediately, a vision of a knight, drenched in rain and asking for sanctuary at a church flashes across my mindseye
    • Allies in Faerie - Feeling stranded, Faerie arrives for me again in the form of Lord Malakai of the Elves, who happens to live in the very place that I have been led on the Quest.  Once again, I see the physics of the quest, that I have been led in synchrony *and* supported by the energies of Faerie
    • Gods of the Road
      • Sanctuary Given - By a couple whom I recognize to be avatars of the road, which reminds me of my own Aspect.  Allowed to stay and use the internet/electricity by their garage as Victory cannot travel onward.
      • Met by Amy once again, resolving that we must leave the world of hippies and head into that of productivity and movement forward.  The idea of Brendon Burchard’s ‘Experts Academy’ comes up.
    • Feathers of Angels -
      • One of the Faerie Lords, ‘Curly’, appears in the Shire of Ashland, granting me a magickal and angelic pen he has created for my birthday in perfect synchronicity
  • The Goblin Ball - 
    • Honoured to witness the magicks of the Good Peoples of the Shire attending Oberon’s Tavern
  • The Experts Academy - 
    • Realms of Abundance & Productivity - Going deep into Burchard’s teachings, recognizing this as the current form of a Temple of Commerce.  First encounter with the concept of a ‘conference’.  Though the endless propaganda of ‘life coaches’ edges on my nerves, I allow myself to flow with the ritual, using the techniques of ‘Acceptance’ in order to receive the vibrations of this thing and gain access to it’s texture.
  • Mark of the Unicorn - 
  • The Path of Pono - 
    • Ho’oponopono - At the end of the year, I am deeply doing ho’oponopono and investigating ways of clearing out the subconscious patterns in effort to shift the reality that I am experiencing.  There is a major moment when my awareness shifts *outside* the Self, and I am able to give Love to the Self, and begin healing the wounds from the connected-yet-separate position.
    •  Later, as I reach out to this character, they reveal that they see my penmanship affecting the World deeply, the something they have never seen before, the threads and lines of Creation itself moving through my being.  They suggest that I love human beings and wish to help them, and that a higher, angelic aspect of myself is just waiting for the right moment to present it’s Truth

2014 - The Dharma Kings
Overview - The movement from prince to King, engaging the coaching processes of ‘Activate’, the Joe Vitale sequence, as well as starting to have access to the visualizations of the Mythica as a comic book.  It is here I begin creation of the Mythica website, while in the shadow fo Mt. Shasta and at a confluence of the Galactic.
  • Heaven and Earth - The Idea clarifies that I must construct the timeline visually, which leads to teaching myself Wordpress and working many hours on the project.
    • First experience of feeling a connection with Earth plane, sensing that it has to do with the ley, the Naming, and the energy of the place we are living
    • A confluence of avatars arrives, each feeling of the texture of the movement to Heaven on Earth.
    • The ways in which beings act are strange to me.  I am unfamiliar with the nature of immaturity.  Feeling the energies, I step up and take care of the aspects of the house.
    • Inspiration - Words of Joe Vitale - “Do something worthy"
  • Paladin of Faerie - 
    • Recognized as a noble in Faerie, encountering what is called a ‘reality TV show’, very far from my point-of-reference
    • Holding space for the tribe
  • In the Name of Love - 
    • Honouring my Agreements - Staying outside the gates as a gesture of keeping my Word to wait before coming in, feeling how this crystallizes the energy around the self
    • Casting a love spell at Lucidity in effort to free myself from the isolation, using deva medicine to hold focus and combat the drifting/flickering.
    • Access increase to my magicks, feeling the movement within without outer movement
  • Priestess of Pono - 
    • Ho’oponopono - Alaya Love arrives, invoking ho’oponopono ritual with us to clear the energies within the space.
  • Roses in the Grass -
    • First appearance - Dakota Chanel, Kundra Rose
    • witnessing Jumana across the Fire (connection with her sacred sexuality / beloved)
  • The Faery Pools -
  • Lions, Tigers & Wolves -
    • Vision - With Adi Shakti by the Faerie Waters, I hear a voice “What more do you want?"
  • Kundra in the Faerie Pools -
  • The Fairy Congress -
    • Deeper sense of the Earthen tribes of Faerie, realizing I have spent much time in the realms of Fire with the performers 
    • Adi - “always nom, forever nom, cookie"
  • Healed by the Forest - 
    • Deva / Faerie Healing - Receiving healing from the Green, deep in the cave of change with Adi Shakti
  • Sailing the Seas of We -
    • Visions - Adi recognizes the islands we are on from a divination/dream that she received (proof of the underlying field)
  • Guardians at the Gates - 
  • The Village of Peace-
    • Feeling-tone of conflict with Rah with another being.  Helping negotiate it, yet not feeling comfortable for the energy
    • First experience of Amrita, connecting with the deva above the Goddess Temple
    • Arriving in perfect timing for the song, recognizing the ‘outer’ expression is a perfect reflection of the inner whilst also witnessing this from the vantage of the higher Self, seeing everything happening in right timing
    • Clarity on my Story becoming more clear as I build the timeline
  • The Sacred Alchemy - 
    • Keeping one’s Word / First presentation of the Mythica - presenting to the Deva, trusting that people will show up, which they do
  • House of Lions - 
    • Trusting that I will be taken care of, being led to the corner of ‘Wine’ and ‘Faith’.  Remembering - “To be a lion without pride"
    • Tome - The Chronicles of Amber appear again, this time with Ra
    • Recognized as the Tree by the Dancer at the Armory
  • Wynden Keep -
    • I am given solace at Wynden Keep, which has the quality of healing the wound of family, the feeling of being isolated and rejected, met by beings who are able to appreciate my magick
      • Doing major forgiveness magicks, having *some* access to my dance-magicks in reference to the body, shifting the subtle textures

2015 - Union of the Kingdoms
Overview - In the effort to shift realities along what I now recognize as the rainbow road, Ho’oponopono is deeply called for during ‘The Castle’ and the ‘Union of the Kingdoms’ episodes, where I am demanded to hold the line and stick to my principles in the face of tremendous question over right action, resulting in the clearing of my consciousness and dissolution of the patterns.  It is during my time at Future Peak that I break through the Time Barrier, recognizing such as a modern-day yoga, wrought to the form appropriate to *MY* shape, deepening my sense of the form beneath the form of things.
There is a deepening into the witnessing of ‘point of view’ itself, and a growing disregard of the unrealized point-of-view, which feels a natural progression into the sovereignty of divination and direct perception.
Healing the Divine Masculine - At the Castle, more patterns occur in the subtle & causal planes that have the texture of the Divine Masculine in distortion, requiring clearing.  Extensive use of ho’oponopono in effort to change this.
Recognizing the Quality embodied in various Characters/Avatars - Clarity increases regarding the vibrational texture/content beneath what appears as people and circumstance on the Path.  There is the deepening sense of our confluence as vision of the Great Story emerges
  • Pele’s Forest -
  • The Castle -
    • Despite misgivings, coming to the Castle with the intention to create a space for the Divine Masculine.
    • Recognition of realmsign on the Path in the fireplace w/the knight, woods & castle
    • The Inn of Time Well-Spent - Encountering Shanti at Pearl’s place - deep reflection of the imprints of the yogas, passing through this avatar, tones of the siddhi, I am gathering understanding in direct transmission with this aspect as per my Nature as a deva.
      • recognizing the Inn in the Mythica as a faerie sanctuary, holding the tones of the deva in the City of Portals
  • Mythic Worlds -
  • Temple of Qi -
  • Womb of the Mother -
    • Faerie Allies - deepening into the Earth w/Fern DeFaye and others, feeling the grounding energies of the Mother affecting me, giving me more access to my powers, reminding again of the necessity to balance and align with the Earth / mortal plane
  • Lightning in a Bottle
    • Divination - The Golden Path - receiving a reading into my ‘human design’ and ‘gene key’ by Amma Li
    • Deva Yoga - Clearing in the winter Waters with misogi en route to LIB
      • Honouring Nature Dreamweaver, helping build the NEST, recognized as an avatar of Faerie.  I sense that this thing, which calls upon the Lightning, is attuned with my Aspect, and therefore a strong place to invoke a new movement deeper towards Heaven on Earth
    • The Media Temple - A mix-up with receiving my artist pass reveals God’s plan as I head to the media tent, encountering Melissa the Weaver (connection to the Mythmaker) and receive the imprints of video production more clearly, and now gain access to these kinds of spells.
      • Divination - The synchrony of heading to the media temple ends with me Meeting Stephen Ehlinger once again in the field, he suggests I connect with Gayatri regarding an event called ‘Union of the Kingdoms'
    • Applied Magicks -  There is the casting of a Love spell, in effort to change the circumstance of the isolation once again, which, combined with some major ho’oponopono on the way down to Los Angeles, produces some comfort in the form of a lover
    • More and more, there is the clarifying of the textures, the sense of my entire reality, of everyone’s entire reality, relative to the textures upon the lens of one’s awareness.  I am witnessing how my own ACCESS is relative to something ….
  • Guardians of the Goddess -
    • Visiting Oberon - Lady Morning Glory passes, and the World is dimmer for her loss.  Nonetheless, I visit Oberon, witnessing a beautiful wisteria and a larger sculpture of the Goddess.  The feeling that comes through is that the presence of the Goddess is larger on the World, the Idea that Oz & MG were pollinating in their appropriate shape & timing is in it’s next stage in terms of human evolution
  • Leaving the Castle -  
    • Ho’oponopono - The distortions in the Divine Masculine continue at the Castle.  I hold my Word and honour, and continue ho’oponopono, trusting that I will be led to a place of more harmony
  • Union of the Kingdoms -
    • “This is the train to Hogwart’s” - The words I share with Dakota as we stand by the railing after our baptism in the Faerie Pools in Water
    • Ambassador of the Deva - Recognized by the Oracle Samavesha Gayatri - Invited to bridge the human & deva realms 
    • Beloved Connection - Dakota and I led to the Deva Yurt, making Love by the labyrinth of forgiveness, recognizing each other’s cosmic essence, declaring promises of Love to each other.
    • Healing the Distortions of Sexual Energy / Ho’oponopono -  An important point on the journey where I must invoke the ho’oponopono regarding the defilement of the sexual energies, in which I am reminded of the lessons of Livingwell in 2010, witnessing the same texture in the underfields of What Is
    • There is the sense here of the under pattern, the energies that are in the causal level which are playing out across the skein of timespace with the same textures.  Though it is distressing Dakota needs me and I hold the line in proper form.
    • Magdalene/Christ Consciousness/Knights Templar energies
    • The genesis of manipulation - I remember seeing Dakota interacting with Aslan, manipulating him to align him with his mother’s wishes, and a sense of why humans are driven to offer guidance to one another despite their relative levels of awareness crystallizes yet again
    • Yab Yum - First encounter with Yab Yum with Dakota in the center of the Labyrinth, baptized by her Waters
  • Initiations of Water / The Rosetta Stone - 
    • Witnessing the Magdalene/Water energy - seeing Dakota’s initiation by Jumana, witnessing the honouring of the Mother energy, the totem of the Deer and the Wolf appearing
  • Future Peak / Healing Earth & Sky - The break between my Heavenly & Earthly aspects truly comes to the fore, where all I can do is use medicines and focus intently on the Mythica in effort to ground at last into the mortal plane.  The Futures are most gracious.  I do not understand that my raging energies can be too much for people, I am simply trying to survive.  Also, there is tension with Allan, which tracks to patterns of empowerment.  Once again, I am unmet in collaboration, though I am working desperately to help the people.
    • The Vibrations beneath - Clarity on the parallel of the vibrational texture of ‘new media’ between my Self and the Future’s, a feeling-perception that Allan and I *SHARE* this quality, embodied in the current Age
    • Breaking the Time Barrier - In stupendous effort, I manage to pierce the Time Barrier while wielding the essence of the Divine Masculine, such that I may have vision of and construct the mapwork of the Akasha
    • Pushing for Access - while the recognition that the 'manifestor consciousness' techniques must be done (from certain viewpoints), that the access to that has flickered in and out, demanding inquiry into the nature of ACCESS.
      • using ganja chocolates as a means of remedy for the splintered distortions going through my self in effort to create the Mythica and somehow survive in the Commonwealth
    • “Love & Light” - Dakota’s undiminished Love for the Creation and the People is a sharp contrast to my agitation.  I feel a sense of connection hither-for unsensed at depth, and have a blossoming sense of the difference between the LIGHT of Awareness and LOVE for the Creation.
    • Rage at God - The rage at God continues.  It feels as though everything in the mortal plane is endless effort in a seemingly uncaring system.  While there has been evidence of God’s support, awareness of this, like so much in my life, is inconstant, and seemingly beyond my control
    • Mermaids at Dusk -Witnessing Dakota in her Aspect, shifting into mermaid form.
    • North’s decline - Feeling helpless to help North, thankful for Sun’s Magdalene Aspect.  As this continues, I use my remaining monies to consult animal communicators, yet what they offer does not feel resonant with my Heart.
    • Help from the Divine Mother - My own mother appears, selling off stocks that she had been saving for me to grant $10,000 to leave Future Peak and continue with the Quest.
  • Continued disappointment with the community - Despite consistent efforts to invoke collaboration and support, the community continues to be absent, save for a few noble souls who recognize my Value
    • Witnessing beings presenting themselves as speakers & teachers, which flickers in and out of reality for me as I shift between realms.  There is confusion on how such unrealized beings could image themselves as teachers.
    • In many of the realms I travel to, the endless propaganda on facebook and email and other forms of communication feels so pushy.  Like voices screaming for me to pay attention to them.  I am thankful for the support from the Futures & Dakota as I strive to find my own version of this to help the very community that has failed to show up
    • There is an increasing sense of distance from listening to ‘other people’s’ points of view, a combination of invoking absolute sovereignty and considering their offerings mostly inept or lacking in resonance
    • No-separation & rancor w/the mortal plane - Deeply seeing that there is no separation, disgust and rage rises at the fact that all of the filth of this plane is actually a part of the Self and thus my self.  There is deep desire to revenge myself upon God for this and yet I know it is folly.

2016 - Sword in the Stone
Major enlightenments happen during my stay in Crestone, Colorado, in which the Life Visioning is put to the test and I have to force myself into Forgiveness.  Aspects of the human World, like Facebook, become more and more distant for me, like witnessing a carousel of vibrations playing out their patterns and meaning.
The sense of the vibrational qualities appearing in the perfect archetypical form continues to deepen, clarifying the elemental templates into their morphogenic fields.  There is more clarity that beings are the very embodiment of those qualities in the appropriate form and “personality” to deliver their Aspect in reference to the other Aspects of the Self across the Creation
Though I am nearly penniless and the so-called community barely shows up, certain avatars appear nonetheless.  Lady Ash continues to support the Mythica and pays for my traffic violations as I forget they even exist (an ongoing pattern of out-of-sync relations with the Earth plane).  I witness that aspects of the Divine Mother have not abandoned me, though I am deeply saddened by the loss of Dakota and this Revelation does not stay consistent within the flickering of realms within my self.
  • Ark -
    • Grandmother Ayahuasca - Told by Grandmother Ayhuascha that it is time for me to step out.  That I AM THE AUTHORITY.  Upon doing so, the whole reflection changes in accordance with the new positioning.  There is the feeling-tone of movement through the skein around the axis of the Self.  Once more the longing for sexual, for sensual intimacy flares within me.  Resolving to the process, I burn that which isn’t my Truth in the Fire.
    • Shifting position - As I step into my Aspect, everything changes around me.  There is the sense of coming into alignment with what wants to be
  • Guardians of the Green -
  • The Children’s Crusade -
    • Dark Horse Comics - Attempting to find collaboration for the Mythica AGAIN, going to Dark Horse comics, which seems aligned on the Path.  This leads me to the Waldorf school, where I witness another octave of education, paralleling the subtle energies I share with Joyous Presence, Lucien Vattel, and others in the field
  • Walk the Mountain -
    • Encountering Tori - Once again encountering Lady Tori, embodying the feral and bright vibration
  • The Southern Roads - 
    • Bardic Allies - Despite being on the road with a damaged wheel, fellow bards appear in the form of the band ‘Drowning Pool’, who offers assistance, proving once again the Worlds beneath the World
  • The High Performance / The Leiflands - 
    • Heaven on Earth - Led to sanctuary by Adelaide Marcus and Michael Ravenwood to the realms of King Leif, who shares the totem of the Wolf and that of Eden / Heaven on Earth in a place called ‘Escondido’.  Meeting at the ‘Yellow Deli’, which feels of the textures of the Brightlands
    • Continuing to attempt to heal North, bringing him to a classic vet
  • The Labyrinth of Story - 
    • Applied Magicks - Using the labyrinth to move deeper across the realms, into the realms of Story.  Connecting with the Deva of Story that underlie the City of Angels
  • Sword in the Stone - 
    • Excalibur - Discovering and drawing Excalibur from the stone in the realms of King Garth.  Recognizing a fellow seeker and this as as Deva landscape, much like Findhorn and Livingwell.
    • Tome of Magick - More information on the “Course in Miracles” book with a deep testimonial from Bill
  • Roads of Faith - 
    • Applied Magicks - Following Bill’s example of application of the ‘Course in Miracles’, I head towards Crestone, constantly invoking Trust in God.  As I arrive, it is revealed that the wheel on the trailer is completely gone, and I was protected whilst driving 80 mph on the freeway by Divinity.  Here, with little money, I am assisted by one of the local metalshapers, whom I offer some of the sacred ganja bars from the Earth Mother I met in Ashland in trade.
    • North’s Request - North tells me telepathically that he must get off the Quest.  I respond that I would be willing to be buried next to each other, yet he insists.  He will not receive my healing Gifts.
  • Dawn of the Dragon -
    • First appearance of Lady Faust - embodying the Divine Mother, Lady Faust offers sanctuary to North and I, penniless and burnt from the Quest.  Despite her own issues with scarcity, she offers what she can and I am deeply grateful.
    • Vision -Visions of Agape/Mindvalley - While in the sanctuary of Lady Faust, I receive a Vision, that I am to assist the Agape ministries and the Mindvalley educational platform with the Mythica, enhancing our shared efforts to bring about Heaven on Earth.
    • Working all day every day on the Mythica, intent on building this portal to Awakening for the People
    • Issues with attachment to my former Lover.  There is no understanding of why they are acting the way they are, as I gradually come to recognize the nature of immaturity and my naivety in seeing that.  Once again, my ignorance of the mortal plane rearing it’s head.
    • Return of the Sadu - Meeting Shanti again, following his request to head to the Vedic City, where a deep ho’oponopono is done as I recognize him as the living embodiment of the overwhelmed and slightly bent version of the siddhi’s within my own Self.  This creates a healing within my own Self regarding my own siddhic distortions
    • There is the deeper recognition of being an avatar of Shiva, of pure awareness, and the confluence of the many avatars of the Mythica in the synchronicity of arriving
    • Honouring the Story - Deeper recognition that it is not ‘forgetting what has been’ or ‘telling a new Story’, but clearing the emotional charge around events so as to see the Divine unfoldment within
    • Continuing to try to have collaboration, save for Yeshua and a flickering with Dakota and Kundra, the frustration continues.  Meeting Justin of Yoga Guide and other beings, not feeling fully received (again)
      More and more there is discernment into the textures which make up our mortal Selves, and the various ideologies and realities which are embodied in that landscape.
  • Vedic City - Fairfield / Healing Shanti - dream manifest happens as I stand outside the water dragon temple with Shanti. I witness myself, from a distance, angrily demanding that he take his blanket out of my truck, as if I am watching a movie that I have already seen. Later, I encounter and photograph a parchment which says “the whole list holiest spot on earth is where hatred has become an indoor in love quote
    • This reinforces the sense that God is the Doer, and everything has already been written out, I am only having Visions of it relative to my current consciousness
  • Wayshrines of Water
    • Arrival of Yeshua Lucis - Healing of patterns of fellowship, community brotherhood, family
      • as it becomes clear that Yashua has arrived in the form of an apprentice, I am determined not to repeat the error that I witnessed in 2008, recognizing the quality of value in what we are teaching each other in appreciation of our gifts and the redemption of the old paradigm of the pyramid in favor of the round table
    • Fellowship / Redeeming Community - Equally disappointed with the lack of honour and follow-through in the community, Yeshua asks me for assistance, which I agree to support him in *and* I follow my Word, beginning the redemption of that tone in the subtle fields that we share
      • At the Cloud Station - encountering many avatars, asking the knight templar I had met to join me on the Quest, accused of trying to manipulate him, which is extremely disheartening
      • Meeting Miles, who offers support in the Mythica yet does not get directly involved
    • Deva Yoga - Yeshua and I invoke a healing, working with the Deva of Water to dissolve issues within the self.  Brotherhood increases.
  • Eve of the Dragon
    • - With virtually no money and the bare minimum of support from the community, I am granted sanctuary by the graciousness of the Beelendorf family, and do intense Manifestor consciousness and Deva Yoga practices in order to clear my consciousness and ideally shift my reality.
    • Calling on Dakota, trying to invoke the feeling-tone of expansion despite the pressures and agitation within my self on Beltane, trying to feel the feeling that I want and having great difficulty in processing the feeling of rejection yet doing my best
    • The rage at God is so intense.  The community unresponsive.  It is all I can do to remind myself of Beckwith’s words, that God is Good, and that we live in a Friendly Universe.
    • I can feel the LEY, the confluences.  Resonance with the Commonwealth of the mortal plane is grounding, and I am feeling the nature of being *Realized* in the context of the Creation
    • Deep Loneliness - So lonely, feeling my former Lover enjoying the fruits of hearth, home, affection, constantly doted on burns my soul.  Recognizing that I must adapt my energies in effort to transmute it and sensing the distortion caused by my discontent, I reapply myself over and over again in effort to shift the circumstance.
    • Great difficult in maintaining gratitude for the experience, especially given the lack of nurturing and resonance for so long
    • Visiting the Stupa / Water Naga - Hammered into enlightenment, I feel the energies of the ley, and am led to share songspell with the Water Naga/Deva before heading to the stupa, giving the ‘fuck yeah!’ mudra to the golden avatar.
    • Continuing to record the Quest in video, learning more about this style of media spell
    • |More and more there is the sense that beings live in entire realities based on the textures, which are becoming ever-more clear.  I am seeing how, given such limited horizons, they perceive only that which occurs for them, rarely considering the very nature of perception or the horizon of their awareness in a meta-way
  • God Loves You -
    •  storyline comes up, proving the physics of the quest/rules of the road for Yeshua and I
    • Meeting of Niekko Chin
    • Moving through patterns in the fields of right-relationship, integrity, authenticity, honour, support.  Witnessing Yeshua’s process and being able to hold space for it, having the clarity to see what is going on and also in the mystery of why we are on the Quest together.  We move through the desert of Fire, going deep into the right working with elements (paralleling both of our storylines into the deva realms prior to our meeting)
  • The Cosmic Carnival  - 
    • Honouring my Agreements - Giving the workshop to a seemingly empty auditorium, yet feeling the presence of the Deva and the various elemental beings, witnessing my effort and the holding of my Word.  Playing harp for the Moon
  • Idyllwild - 
    • Clearing the Land - Once again, clearing the Land, witnessing that as I do this, it clears the energies within my own self
  • Lands of Realization (Encinitas/Hypothesis) -
    • Yogananda - First encounter with the Self-Realization Fellowship temple.  At this confluence point, I share with Dakota the nature of Kings, Queens, redeeming the patterns, the impermanence of forms like ripples in the Water, as she works to heal a relationship with one of the Fallen Kings
  • The City of Angels -
    • The Mother Vine - Ayahuasca gathering in Topanga, recognizing the lack of clarity in some of the faerie avatars, going outside and blending with the deva, vast amounts of sexual desire and longing for “The One"
  • The House of Love
    • First visit to Agape (“We are tested so we may give testimony!”).  Deep confusions.  Forgetting the Truth again and enraged at God.  Coming back to prayer after inspiration
    • Led to House of Love w/Luncinda Love, receiving nurturing & sonic bath (proof that God supports us w/help)
  • Earthstar - 
    • Clearing the Land - More clearing of the Land.  Very little money.  Yeshua scavenging in the dumpsters as I try once more to gather alliance from the so-called “community"
    • House of the Merkaba - 
  • Way of the Wizards -
    • Granted sanctuary by Lucian Vattel.  Clearing the Land.  Reappearance of Joyous Presence.
  • Phenovibe -
  • The Golden Horse -
    • Deep healing - Adam continues to show fellowship, helping me to find a place to stay with his allies at a Temple of the Moon graced by the Golden Horse.  Recognizing the Horse as totem of Power and movement, I invoke a mixture of ho’oponopono, deva yoga, Manifestor consciousness in the hot tub, intending to clear the patterns to reach the Abundance.  Receiving Idea to use Adobe Spark to tell Stories, make it easier on the people.  Feeling expansion.
  • Bards & Queens -
    • Proof of the Physics - Anna Bliss appears at Mimosa’s in perfect synchronicity, I witness her Aspect in the Mythica as an agent of Law & Love
    • Connections with Mathers, another avatar of Story and ally of Paradox Pollack
  • Closing the Circle -
  • Asgard Rising - 
    • Free parking ticket & money given at gate at City of Dreams while working combination of ho’oponopono, deva yoga & Manifestor consciousness 
    • recognizing the octave of manifestation of the magickal World increasing in both Hjeron’s and my field, feeling the energies of the bifrost and of Story
  • The Valley of Grass -
    • Kundra appears - 
    • Deva Yoga - intentional healing in the Waters of the Yuba River.  Trying once more to get into the physical yogas, with little constancy or remembrance
  • At Water’s Edge (Symbiosis) -
    • No money, hungry.  Granted a ticket to shoot photos for the Pyronauts by Hjeron.  Recognizing alliance in the avatars of Fire
    • Kundra brings food - .  I am led to a temple of Nourishment, and receive sustenance from Kundra Rose and then Jillian Love, recognized as a Goddess of Vitality
    • Meeting the mermaid Savannah by the Water with the Futures
    • Loss of the Faerie Sparkle.
    • Given a task to drive a trailer back to San Francisco
  • The Golden Nectar Palace - 
    • Temple of Story - Drawing strength from the Source wall (which appears as a wall of comics on the surface)
    • Connection with Queen Mikaela, feeling that royalty of vibration
    • Kundra Rose appears again as an ambassador of Story (Storrior) at a Cindi Lauper concert.  “We are the best tantra teachers in the Universe!"
    • God Supports Us - Car gets towed, yet I have *just* enough money to pay for it 
    • “A Priori” - Recognized by one of the Kauai Kings as an avatar that exists ‘before conditions’, given $100 of support on the Quest.  Considering donations vs. merchantile selling of the Story again
  • OneLove - 
    • Honouring the Divine Masculine with Zor
    • Divination - Reading from Anya Lei - recognizing the World Tree, the ancient and future magicks
  • Portal to the New Earth -
    • Major energies of Opening, seeing myself in the Heaven on Earth rainbow roads.  Witnessing the avatars arriving, seeing the movement from the Old World to the New.
    • Characters - Bloom, the Elf from Portland, Doron, King Garth, Alaya Love
    • Continuing to try to find companionship.  Lonely.  Sexually unsatisfied.
  • Ojai / The Green Glow -
    • connection with ally met in playa.  considering - is this a movement forward into the Holy Wood? Yet this doesn’t happen.
  • Sanctuary of Rainbows - 
    • Perfect Timing - Delayed in meeting, then timing with Anna Bliss to enter party (God supports us in perfect timing)
  • The Doctor is In - 
    • Realmsign of being an avatar of magick in Dr. Strange, appearance of embodied avatar at theatre, returning in perfect timing w/the Elphinstone Coat and sharing magicks at the theatre, which appears in the Mythica as a confluence of the essence of the Holy Wood, of magick and glamour and True.
  • Ojai -
    • Sanctuary appears - A place opens for me to stay, yet is short-lived
    • Screaming out my frustrations - blowing out my voice, calling to the Aina 
  • Tribes of the Moon -
    • Deva Yoga / Medicine journey - Given LSD which Opened a huge healing, major healing with the Tree spirit
    • Feeling Value -  recognizing the Value in Witnessing vs. Manifestor consciousness, recognizing this Lesson is part of the reason the Moon priestess was led to invite me to come down
  • Topanga Angels -
    • Applied Magicks - Spell to manifest abundance with deva - results in donation of $20 and new alliances
  • Agape -
    • Meeting Michael Beckwith - At last I meet Michael Beckwith.  Following the Vision granted to me by the Divine, I try to share the Mythica with him, yet it doesn’t quite catch.  I am connected with Akili Beckwith, and set a time to share in the ‘Quiet Mind’ bookstore (Temple of Story)
    • The Arhat and the Boddhisatva - Reading the passage from the Gene Keys at the ‘Toybox’, recognizing both of those within my self, yet leaning towards the boddhisatvic to help beings on their Path
  • The Royal Servants (Butterflies & Kings)  -
    • Travel with fellow King Niekko in service to the rainbow and the butterflies
    • Niekko recognizes the great Value of my Aspect, which is healing and redeeming from the sufferings and grievance towards the community.
    • Sign of the Butterfly, that of rebirth and transformation
  • Temple of the Fire Diamond -
    • Divination - Healing the wound of relationship to move onward - recognizing that it happens in the space called ‘Corazon’, the place of the Heart.  Afterwards, Divination at Mimosas in which Gio is led by Spirit to arrive in confluence
    • Sanctuary Granted - place to stay at the Temple of the Fire Diamond, continuing my attempts to garner alliance for the Mythica.  Zor arrives, showing the pattern beneath the surface once again.  Much more work on the Mythica, dealing with the feeling-tone of discomfort within the home space over attempted assertions of dominance.  Awareness continues to expand, walking on the Land, doing Life Visioning - Manifestor consciousness and Ho’oponopono in effort to change the circumstance

2017 - Love Thy Self
Overview - “Gaze of Shiva” deeply clarifies, and I witness beings responding to me even more deeply with harmony and resonance (for the most part).  Such feels a victory on the Quest.  The sense of the lines of confluence and the very nature of form itself continues to deepen.  I am continuing to work with the form of the Mythica in effort to help the people.  Major questions come up with the various presentations of incarnates, in which I am dubious to their actual Knowledge of the Consciousness
  • The Agape Agenda-
    • Life Visioning Success - Application of Life Visioning Manifestor consciousness practices which brings a check for $21,000, which is also aligned with right-timing in the Collective field.  More question and answer as to the nature of free will and that ‘God is the Doer'
  • Journey to Paradise -
    • Yoga Teacher Training - Led by Kundra Rose to ‘Yoga Teacher Training’, there is the distinction of the yogas of awareness as compared to the aerobic stretching, recognition that I am in the embodiment of the subtle aspect of the siddhic yogas.
    • Allowah Lion - The textures in the Mythica that define yogic discipline and effort of a certain timbre appear through Allowah.  While it is not the siddhic textures of Shanti or myself, vast information pours into me regarding what has passed for yoga in this Age
  • Into the Akasha -
    • First Appearance of Justin Stearman at Kismet, meeting with Bloom & allies, journey to the Akasha.  Estara Sun needs assistance, also seeing her at Kismet.
    • Witnessing connection of Galactics on the Island of the Gods, all part of Gaia’s Guardians
    • Giving $200 of my remaining $800 to Estara, standing firm in my conviction to help the people  and trust the unfoldment of the Abundance
  • The Flow Temple -
    •  The Mindvalley Ambassador - I encounter Ana Juma at Satori‘s. Afterwords, I am given to present a video to mine Valley, yet they do not respond. Like agape, I am confused. Why would God give me this vision to assist them if they were in capable of perceiving its value?  - I resolve that I must change myself more, that I must shift more deeply, to achieve this reality.
    • Deeper journeys into the yogic arts.  Feeling the textures of the old paradigm of yoga through Allowah.  The practices feel repetitive and boring.  I appreciate the knowledge that Allowah brings to the table regarding the pre-Ascendent paradigm as well as the fusion that he embodies with the Course in Miracles.  Some authority and agreement issues with Forest
    • Reconnecting with Dakota - Speaking at last, opening space, hearing Stories of the easement and nurturing, the cuddling and other aspects of Life that I feel i’ve been almost completely denied save for a few precious allies yet holding space and not wishing to judge or be out of right-action in my sense of personal nobility
    • The Mother Vine (Grandmother Ayahuasca) - a one-on-one journey with the Mother Vine, which results in further clarity on being an avatar of Shiva, of pure awareness.  Deep sexual desire rises up again.
  • Elves at the Arma -
    • Feeling the ancient-future energies, dance-magick, connecting with the elves
  • Bards & Kings -
    • Encountering King Mikael, connection w/Samuel Tellam & the Cornwall/Curly thing
    • Helping Kundra & the Shamanette with snake spirits coming through the medicine, helping Kundra to see her Value in the mix as well as holding the sacred Divine Masculine space
  • Roses in Water - 
    • Traveling with Kundra to embrace the Aina, helping us both heal and dissolve into our magicks
    • 2nd journey with Kundra to the bigger Waterfall, same magicks, then doing bardic work on the way home through the mountains
    • Recognizing that I must LOVE THE SELF in order to dissolve the patterns of agitation on the subtle levels 
  • The Pixie Paradigm - 
    • Meeting Marquie Moo, connected to Hjeron O’Sidhe, in the Dragonfly realms
    • Trying again to create collaboration, yet it seems to dissolve yet again
  • Aina and Anima - (healing at Waterfalls of Les, passing of North, proof of God’s support in plane ticket confusion)
    • Drawing energy from the Aina, climbing the mountainside, facing feelings of weakness and electric overwhelm from being on the computer for so long
    • North passes.  I am blocked from remembering my plane flight, which turns out to be perfect as I am able to hold space via video w/the ceremony in the comfort of my home.  A sign of God’s Grace. 
  • 9 Angels - 
    • Meeting the Pirates! First appearance of Ignacio and Cecilla, also Leila Leela
    • sharing the magick with Leila (moving forward in sharing the Story)
    • sharing the quick comic w/the pirates
  • Bali Dacha - 
  • MU Starz - 
    • Gathering of Kings & Queens, Story of the Unicorn dust, support for King Mikael. recognizing the Kauai/Hawaii connection amongst the avatars again
  • A Pirate Story -
    • Travel with Pirates, connection with the Water Deva
    • Vitality comes through the Water Deva and freedom on the open land.  Clearing the burnt feeling of being on the computer so much
  • The Pyramids of Chi -
    • Meeting Mithras / Lord Byron - recognizing the Akasha of our meeting and the bardic/magickal textures, the mapwork of the Mythica
      • Declaring my Aspect as a Deva and being received - a new iteration of my Story comes out, which is received by Lihnbling’s natural sense of truth through her own attainments.
    • Scotland connection - Encountering Peter & Lynn Macintosh, Story of automatic writing proving God’s Plan
  • Agents of the Akasha - 
    • Yeh Ming Zhu - encountering Jory at the Akasha, receiving the Yeh Ming Zhu, gifting it to the Pirate King, then gathering more on journey with Lihnbling
  • The Royal Yogas -
    • Connecting with Bhajan and the sound healing, considering kundalini yoga again
    • Deva journey - a sense of Shakti / the Goddess, and the vitality that comes from that feeling.
    • Arriving in Right Timing - More and more evidence that when I get an intuition to call someone, or they appear in the field, we are the vessels for helping each other.  That I am led around in different circumstances to be Where God Wants Me To Be
  • Zen Awakening -
    • Recognized as avatar of Shiva.  Training Yeshua & giving him the Yeh Ming Zhu (Moon Pearl).
    • Giving Mystery School talk in a pyramid.  Navi Ethereal shows up in his Aspect as Anubis in perfect timing.
    • Reappearance of Julie Woods
    • Cleaning up the Land / Divine Support - wondering how the money will come through, money & assistance arrives in the last moment, and we are able to rent a car to head to Naples
  • Nectar of Naples -
    • The Mother Vine (Ayahuasca) - Medicines arrive, Ayahuasca and others, we are provided sanctuary and some finance and a place to stay to work out the Mythica
    • Deep brotherhood with Yeshua, sharing finances, showing equity and balanced relationship, encouraging and aiding him in clearing his Voice, which is also recognized to be “my” Voice
    • Deep question of keeping one’s word in regard to our host, which feels vague and inconsistent.  It brings up the question of being safe and supported as we continue our quest.
    • Temple of Story -  Deepening into Story-magick, drawing prana/strength from the Temple of Story manifesting as Barnes n’ Noble
    • Support on the Quest - doing constant practices to clear the fields within, Yeshua and I are receive support here and there from allies, as well as scavenging for food from Whole Foods bins and sharing our process and honouring each other on the Quest.  Despite the frustrations with the community mostly ignoring us, still there is support from the Divine
    • Unexpected Change - The Agreement with us is broken in a sloppy way, causing much distress.  However, the physics of the quest prove constant as Samson Love appears in the field, offering sanctuary in a place called ‘Las Vegas'

2018 - Embodiment
The depths of forgiveness of the community and of the Self and then of loving the Self come up deeply during the ‘Magician’s Oasis’ episode with Yeshua, also providing an opportunity to stand behind my word and the excellence of virtue that I aspire to as a means of redeeming the patterns of defilement in the World.
Many, many times the absolute frustration and rancor with the mortal plane, feeling as though I am unsupported and blocked comes up.  It is an angry, tight feeling within the self, constantly hammered on by the near-total lack of support from the community save for a few individuals * and * the inconstancy of access to Ideas on how to change it, or simply being blocked, which burns from within.  With seemingly no other choice, Yeshua and I go even deeper into the sovereignty of our vibrational feeling-sensation in effort to free ourselves from the perceived imprisonment.  While at the Magician’s Oasis, the ancient enmity with the mortal plane comes up *again*.  However, as has happened many times on the Quest, we make it through, and see more reason to drop into a more alkaline state of Trust despite the inconstancy.
More and more I come to see that frustration and a sense of helplessness before the unfoldment of circumstance has flickered in and out of my perception, demanding some form of somatic change in effort to reduce the inflammation in the self through those subtle asana.  What made it extremely difficult was the deep-rooted question of whether GOD WAS GOOD, despite what I had to endure in this plane.  Example - I suspected that my 5TB of photo backup on Amazon AWS was deleted whilst at the Lavender Farm, due to a combination of my inattentiveness and lack of finance, all of which tracked back to the conditions of the Mind, which related back to the splinter * and * the conditions of not feeling supported or having access to the way in which to clear the patterns * consistently *, which demanded surrender to God.  In order to ease myself and thus move more into Manifestor consciousness in effort to break free of the perceived prison, I invoke all manner of somatic exercises, such as forgiveness, feeling the expansive vibration, etc.  I created the Mythica to help bolster that action, showing the proofs in the physics of the quest that despite what things *seem* to be in the short-term, God is actually Good and supportive. 
It is very difficult.  With the conditions feeling so limited, I find that I am constantly questioning the support from the Divine. Yet at the same time, there is the ongoing reminder that God has shown up, time and again.  There is the continued wondering if God actually supports me with the continued issues with the computer keyboard.
Considering perspective - On the most basic of levels, I have always wanted to be in my right place, in a pleasant manner with the Earth plane.  This was extremely difficult for me for an extended period of time, in which I felt isolated, out-of-sync, and striving to understand.  
Loving Pacha Mama - progression from Light to Love
  • Magician’s Oasis - reappearance  of the Mythica Compass, feeling of harmony and non-judgment between Yeshua and I which eases the feedback loop of agitation within our Selves.  A grand opportunity for Virtue well-met
    • Samson Love appears, embodying Devotion & Rapture in relationship with the “Beloved” - A sharp contrast to the sense of constant work and annoyance at having to do that work, “Accept the Curriculum”.  Regardless of this, I can sense his cultivation with my powers and have respect for it.
    • Development of Akasha Yoga / Deva Yoga
    • Deep movements of applied discipline, giving Love to the Self, recognizing Yeshua as the conduit for the vibrations of Earth in a form that I can accept
    • Moving through resentments & appreciation of the necessity of daily alchemy in the Earth plane whilst also focusing deeply into the Mythica, doing more process
    • More clarity occurs in the understanding of the Mythica Compass and the relationship to the chakras, the overall feeling being one of descending from ‘Heaven’ consciousness, that of the formless, into form.
    • Drawing story-prana from ‘The Magician’s’ - watching ‘Under pressure’ repeatedly as a mantra
    • Deeply going into right-relationship with Yeshua
    • Continuing to use ‘Moana’ as a mantra to shift my consciousness
    • Deep, deep … DEEP intentional healing of our shared agitation with the so-caleld “conscious community” and the lack of virtue seemingly rife within the field.  In accordance with the principles we both work to cleanse and clear ourselves, honouring our sacred relationship 
  • Gaia Temple- major transitions, a realmgate.
    • Amidst a hail of unappreciation, I witness my Self channeling the guru vibration, shifting the energies in the space as words come through declaring how Peter has gone through what he’s gone through to be clean enough to present the Mythica to the World
    • witnessing once again the causal elements, in which issues within beings are brought to the surface in the face of awareness and our subtle asana
    • Feeling so burnt from the Magician’s Oasis, I long for sanctuary.  Instead, I am disregarded and hammered with judgmental energy which does not appreciate my Value despite all the work Yeshua and I have done to heal this.  Despite this, I do MAJOR ho’oponopono and healing yogas within the space in effort to clear the shared distortion such that we ALL may rise to our True clarity and brightness
  • Eve’s (The Inn at World’s End) -
    • Self-Realization Fellowship - Once again the Path takes me to the Self-Realization fellowship.  In the underlands of the Mythica, I see the confluence, the movement of selves across the canvas of Time, in which other avatars have come to this location, this confluence of ley on the skin of Gaia
    •  Chakra Keys - opportunity to heal with the Land and the Surf, to go into the Deva Yoga more deeply, and heal the wounds of feeling abandoned when Yeshua goes off with Erica
      • Being recognized in my Value by the peoples of Eve’s and the magickal shoppes nearby!!! A sense of Victory that softens the burning feeling of the Gaia Temple!!!
      • Appreciations that Eve of World’s End is the end, and beginning of the Worlds.  A junction-point for the transition into the new paradigm.
    • Vast increases in the healing and clarity.  There is the AWARENESS of no-separation, and the grounded anchoring of that awareness, which allows for the transmission of Shakti-pat, healing.  I am seeing, more and more, the nature of the Perfection which lay beneath, and the trials which have given me ability to facilitate that healing.
    • Received Joe Dispenza material from Dakota - Doing daily meditations (Manifestor consciousness)
  • Lavender Farm
    • Blissville - accepted and recognized as a magickal avatar.  
      • My gear shows up in perfect timing, proving I am supported - The Physics of the Quest / Friendly Universe - this suggests that the work Yeshua and I have been doing is paying off, with the olde wound of being unrecognized and unappreciated dissolving
      • Niekko lives nearby - a sign of confluence of the Collective shared movement - POQ - Everything is linked together
    • First appearance of Justin Moore, Alicia Wolff
    • Niekko feels he sees my true face and that the way forward is with a book, leading into the teachings, with the proper presentation.  I sense the alignment on the deep elemental planes, feeling the vibrations of it.  There is the sense of the Unfoldment happening, the Great Story coming together in the lines of our Collective consciousness.  Our inherent Unity.
    • Deeply focusing on the Manifestor consciousness stuff/deva yoga blending with the Earth / feeling “at-peace” with What Is as best I can, dropping the long-standing agitation with the mortal plane.  Softening the Self in order to receive the vibrational emanation from Dispenza, to create a new emotional palette as a clarification on the Manifestor consciousness in effort to transform the reality to what I deserve.
      • Getting clearer on the understanding of the intentional shift between alpha, beta, etc. consciousness as an axis for manifestation
      • Deeply clear on the fact there there is no separation
    • The body continues to tell me to stop the bad habits, slowly but surely I am shifting into Doing the Practices more, constantly resolving my grievance over the necessity of the doing in this Age.
    • Facing the PRIME WOUND yet again.  The resentment of the Earth plane and the practices necessary to exist here.  Once again, the olde quality of feeling both within it *and* beyond it, flickering/drifting between states of being.  Realizing more and more that the root chakra must be dealt with.
      • Also, feeling like I must generate self-love even more, and wishing for more nurturing environs.  Speaking with avatars of Love in my field, and feeling crunching in my Heart, fearing being unmet, or left out in the cold, having to do MORE inner work to clear that
    • Quality of dance-magick with the Self increases again, with natural mudras occurring w/awareness of the energies within the body in accordance.  Such feels a deepening into my own natural yoga, the pattern that has evolved over the course of time
    • Kiss of Shakti / Amrita - experience while working with deva allies of energies moving through form feeling access to the Goddess and the vitality coming through the awareness
    • The feeling occurs, perhaps there is more Will, more Choices that can be made, which create different timelines, or that we are merely clearing the true timeline from the distortions of unloving choices
    • Deepening into access regarding the Prime Yoga - the conscious awareness of and shifting of the tones of the self to anchor in the Brightlands.  To use the yogas rather than the medicines to achieve the states of being.  Like all the other aspects of the Quest, this has the feeling of the pattern already being there in the background, and I am clearing the way, over Time, to get to that realm of existence / state of being.
    • Deepening the understanding that there is no separation, and the Aspects of the Self, their access and relationship to us, is relative to the shared field, which is negotiated through inner change, which subsequently changes the outer field.  Such provides a beautiful way to encourage more forgiveness of the people (aspects of the Self), who are determined by God’s plan (which transcends “victim” and “Manifestor” consciousness)
    • The Pyramid and the Round Table - really feeling the resonance of the round table over the pyramid, in which there is the transition from one energy-dynamic to another. 
    • Resolving Heaven and Earth - Facing the necessity of daily alchemical practices yet again, I am able to transmute the long-standing disgust into a more appreciative Gratitude, able to focus my Will more.  I am deepening into understanding of the concept of ‘monkey mind’ though like so many aspects of the mortal plane, it is an inconstant thing for me, depending on circumstance
      • The necessity of healing the self keeps coming up, in which the still-resolving frustration and anger at certain aspects of manifestation and a sense of being denied the deep nurturing that I deserve come to the surface, requiring ongoing inner clearing
    • 2018-6-9 - ‘A Net of Jewels’ - A tome appears in the field, brought to me by Yeshua, which reminds of the pre-Ascendent paradigm of awareness cultivation, shifting the tone of my self and inspiring a remembered recognition of the difference between that sanskara of guru-perception and the ‘self-development’ movement.  This occurs close to when Hareesh presents a thing related to awareness itself.
    • 2018-6-10 - Emotional Generator - A reflection appears in the field, which talks about being an emotional generator (from the human design done for me by Maiy Dendity), I consider the shape of my soul, and the idea that my frustration has come from having to wait for things to happen before I can respond
      • Asking God - After witnessing a video from Sadhguru, asking God for assistance with my harp.  Doing the wedding at the Lavender Farm, Alicia offers to assist with the harp
    • 2018-6-11 - Money appears - Once again, money appears in the right moment, a random donation to the Mythica providing the cash to pay for the AWS and the Adobe, whilst Alicia offers a bit to assist with food.  Like the time at the Magician’s Oasis, Nectar of Naples and all throughout, despite hardships, the basic “daily bread” is provided for.
      • We arrive at Blissville.  Niekko reads a passage from an oracle deck about when we feel we’re being denied and how it is preparing us for something better and greater.  As painful and irritating as it is, I push myself into accepting it, girding myself once more for the nigh-endless clearing of the human condition, shifting myself into gratitude for the opportuntiy
    • 2018-6-13 - SHAZAM - Going deeper into the DIspenza spellworks, really feeling the identification with Awareness and then the setting a new emotional tone within the body.  “Making the experience memorable” the idea comes to me, to use the Shazam trigger to activate the brighter, and more expansive version of my self.
      • continuing to recognize that I must have emotional and energetic sovereignty in order to allow the prana to move through my system.  that I must be able to maintain the imagery.  I continue to bow to and appreciate Yeshua’s Aspect in order to clear the subconscious patterns of resistance which block access to the doing of the practices (this means deeply, DEEPLY being mindful of my energetic state in relation to reviewing the journey into the Mythica, to hold the feeling-tone of expansion throughout and not shift into the Shadowlands)
    • “Accept the curriculum”
    • The Round Table - Realizing the fellowship is gathering more allies as the Round Table emerges
    • 2018-6-16 - Stepping into the Magick - 
      • Deep movements into the tantras and Alicia recognizing her own majesty.  Videos garnered.  Desiree and Meesha showing up.  Major magicks.  A few days earlier, feeling the Land speaking through Yeshua and I, feeling the Goddess, wanting the sacred arts temple.  Recognizing how NOBLE I actually am, feeling the VALUE of my being, seeing how much i’ve accomplished and how even with that great virtue, how one can misperceive themselves through shadow.  Weaving the magicks, a deep  healing for Desiree and for Meeksha.  making sure my weavings are super-aligned, checking in w/the Goddess
      • There is a sense of the tremendous nobility that I have embodied, while also recognizing how my own sense of self has shifted and moved over time, in which the recognition of that Kingly/Knightly aspect is not always seen.
      • Building the clarified timeline at last - As I do this, the remains of the splinter rise in accordance.  There is the feeling that I have been pulling together the shattering of my lens of perspective over time, playing out as the circumstances of my Life and the building of the Mythica.  Painful psychic patterns (shadows) come up through the nervous system as I continue to deepen my understanding
      • Healing more wounds (the olde wounds) - Realmsign is appearing demanding that I heal the olde wounds at last, mustering Will yet again.
      • Alternating between feeling deeply enlightened and doing more daily practices *and* the sense of wanting more vitality, connection, greens, a vehicle, etc