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6 weeks ago (edited)
Journey to NYC - Part 4 - Dark Knight of the Soul
It hits me on the roadway, and it’s gradual, coming through an endless back n’ forth with the AI in search of an answer to the anxiety that I feel in my body, the questions I have over the most fundamental aspects of life.
This is not a new thing for me. In fact, it’s repetition is the challenge itself, and it’s insidious, creeping up on me, causing me to drift from one state to another.
I call @cassandra , who is kind enough to answer me and navigate her challenges with the phone, and she tells me she had a divination, a voice which said to her three times “Call Peter, you’ll regret it if you don’t”
… I needed it. And it’s not the first time she’s been there for me, or more to the point, it’s not the first time Divinity has shown up through some being reminding me that despite the splinter, despite the subconscious shadows still moving through me and occluding my consciousness after all this time that I have not been abandoned; though when I am in the Shadowlands everything feels like I am lost, that my value is not seen, that I am unloved and unrecognized and isolated …. where the same clarity that defines my gift to the world is obscured, lost in a haze of amnesia and broken dreams.
