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      2023-12-24 –

      Devotion – I awaken late, and breathe my awareness through my body, feeling into the recesses and crevices that lay within the physical form. As the intention is to shift into a more consistently yogic approach to the alchemies of life in the coming year, it feels like a good practice, one that can prep me for deeper explorations into the idea of “how are you feeling” and what control we have over that.

      From my akashic perspective the journey into the body feels like the natural movement from where i’ve come from into where i’m going, where the vastness of awareness-of-space that has defined my journey thus far feels to be on a lifelong journey from the crown to the ground, gradually coming to accept the repetitions of the mortal plane in the context of desire and enlightenment, divining the proper relationship with my soul’s intent and how that plays out in the world.

      Before these past years, I couldn’t have honestly said I understood the particulars of how the mortal condition is defined by desire, and how desire is defined by the mortal condition. There was a kind of blind spot, a gap in my conceptualization and integration of these most basic things that reached a threshold of clarity in Joshua’s brief return to the fold in the winter preceding the journey to the Ravenwood. There, something shifted within me, and I came to see the fundamental self-centeredness that drove people’s desires, that they did things because it aligned with what they wanted *or* what they had no choice in, all of which was determined by the desires of the soul and the self, by the line between inspiration and compulsion and what that said about the idea of “aligning with one’s highest self” and other focus points of divination.

      It was a clarifying time to say the least, where I felt the muddy confusions and incoherences I was burdened with in the mortal form start to shake free, something I attributed to my return from the quest and the constant work I was doing to clarify my consciousness through the building of Into the Mythica, and had happened in confluence with the recognition of my own mortal condition, of the passage of time and it’s effect on my body-of-consciousness, and how such things related to the meaning and media of the modern age. Accordingly, as I start to breathe into my body and focus my attentions into the inner landscape, I feel myself initiating a place of devotion, a way of approaching the reality of effort to forge what we want in the world relative to the conditions of the Age of Shadows to which we have been born, carrying with it a mixture of resigned and devotional acceptance as to what must be done in this tumultuous time.

      The Adventures of Cartmaster and the Aisles of Abundance

      I get intuition to head out and do some work for Instacart once again, shopping for the people’s holidays and making some extra cash. Like everything in the mortal plane, it’s a thing of ethers, and what appears on the surface has it’s deeper dimensions in the subtle fields of life. For me, it plays out as a coherence, one that blends the divinations of my movements from day to day with the decisions I make and the way I feel myself throughout.

      The feeling is one of synergy, where the monies I make, the monies I spend and general vibrational shape of the Mythica all occurring as a singular thing reflecting across many facets, where the words I write, the actions I take, the divinations that I have along the way and the overall harmony of the unfolding spell all feel part of the same emanation of subtle Grace.