2023-5-26 – Eugene

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I come back to Eugene, flush with the expansive feeling of connecting with Fern and the shared resonance. I work for a combination of Uber Eats and Instacart, gathering coin to fulfill the quest. After some time, I make my way to the Eugene public library, doing the latest run on the posts of the Mythica.

It brings things up. As I look over the photos still reeling from my experiences with Adrienne, I wonder if all my effort has been for naught, if the Characters I wish to honor will not recognize the vast Gift I am trying to give them or will have contest with being featured on the basis of as-yet-resolving shadows regarding being honored and seen and/or wanting to stay anonymous. Given my naivete towards the mortal plane and the years of effort i’ve made to make sense of the worlds, i’m not sure.

At the end of the day, I know that I can publish the comics, the courses, and speak from the perspective of my journey into the Mythica without the Characters, but it doesn’t have the same effect and would reduce what I was doing on the timeline, a thing which feels nigh-endless in it’s presentation – the latest adjustment of which i’m doing as-I-write-this.

There’s a realization in this that the underlying pressure i’ve been feeling, that sense of ungroundedness and gradually coming-to-ground is deeply related to the story, to my clarifying of the story, the photos, the maps, etc. and bringing that all together. Because it couldn’t have happened before this moment, because I had to build out the Mythica first and such was the very essence of the process, I am demanded to faith that God is Good, and that there s a greater pattern to my efforts to share this with the people.