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peterfae posted an update
As the social network comes together, and I find myself able to write posts from the road describing the journey, I consider what it means, what it means to speak about the process of things, Unfolding, knowing that I am setting the tone for the journaling of one’s sacred path and the movement through the various psycho, emotional conditions that are part of that quest.
This is not always easy for me, not simply, because I go through my own brand of shadow work and miscommunications, but because after a lifetime of negotiating such things, I can sometimes become so bored and agitated, with their repetition that I will go into a value judgment as to whether or not, I’m going to endure Something that feels telepathically out of sync in my communication with someone else and question the amount of effort I will have to do to achieve a more ideal space or if it is simply more strategically viable for me to let the situation go. While this may seem harsh to some for me, it is an act of Strategic self preservation and recognition of the value of my time.
I’m willing to look at it. To look at my portion of the distortion in miscommunications yet also recognize that certain things are simply out of harmony and cannot be reconciled.
Part of it is how much shadow work and processing I have done with others over the course of my story, and how uncomfortable it is for me to not be in that easy, telepathic space that comes from true residence. It speaks to my frustration with the overall vibrational incongruence of this age, and the assumed negotiation of shadow patterns in service to an ideal of compassion that I came to feel excluded compassion for myself, and which surely affects my desire to engage with beings in the process of their own resolution. While I wish beings to have victory in the easement of their inner conflict as much as I wish it for myself, this is a real thing I have contemplated many times in my life , and which I recognize to be related to my own crown, heart, and rootedness in the world. simply put, some things can be resolved, and I’m willing. Other times, they cannot, and given my willingness, if I do not experience that willingness with others, or if I feel something is fundamentally untenable, there is a line that I draw in the sand.
