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peterfae posted an update
a year ago (edited)
2023-6-11 –
I awaken, and the first thing I do is engage with the Energy Codes meditation, feeling the connection between the points in my body, establishing the energetic circuitry. As I do, there is a subtle sense of grounding, of dropping into the form beneath the stories and repetitions in the subconscious, beginning what I realize will be an ongoing lifelong endeavor of exploring the reaches of my body and the somatic map of my manifest world. It feels to be the next stage of the Path of the Magus, and in accordance with the gradual publishing of the Mythica aligned with my Heart’s Desire – to master the mystic arts and document the journey as a living adventurer.
Seen from the Big Picture, it all has a certain sense to it, with the grounding out of the Mythica temple online during the “Keep on the Borderlands” and the subsequent journey of accepting my heart’s desire to the beginning of my posting on instagram and owning my archetype as the Writer/Adventurer in the space – writing the posts from my perspective before I even try to include others, focusing my energy into that expression – into the expression of Peter Fae. Here even the slight frustration over the death of Akashi’s last incarnation and her impending ressurrection become fodder for a much larger thing, parts of the narrative of magic, the rebirth of my self and story into a new and more capable form.
The distinction is subtle, energetic, and wrought of consciousness, where I find myself starting to take time in the morning to do the writing, starting to put together posts that are exclusively of my own writing and recollection, where I work to align my actions with the heart’s desire, with that of my most potent and influential layer of Will.
It feels right – like I am doing what needs to be done to fulfill the next part of the Quest, prepping and curating my consciousness as a field through the body to actualize the energetic entry into the subconscious and deeper layers of the self. There’s the sense that seen on a grand scale it is the natural progression from the clarifying of the world of magic, grounding out that Big Picture view into the small, the movement emblematic of my own karmic architecture and it’s journey from the crown to the ground, gradually integrating into the mortal form and the manipulations of the causal self.
It’s the long view – The seeing-of-myself as coming from that crown-centered place and making the vertical & horizontal movement through the geometries of story – the realization that coming from such a place my only capable action was to map the Big Picture, gradually dropping into the somatic languaging that defines the current milieu, gradually divining and discerning the shape of the Mythica spell and her necessary components along the way. In this there is the sense that this is what I have always been doing, a recognition that I have been a vessel for the new Aeon of magic, coming from that celestial place into the mortal plane in service. Here the sense of imbalance within me, the question of my own “imposter syndrome” regarding the deep drop-in to the causal body and it’s somatic exploration vs. the vastness of my perspective on the Stars & the Soil feel to be part of that larger expression, an arc of action and agency occurring over a lifetime of circumstance – the return from the first twenty years of the Quest —> the year of recuperation and dissemination of my notes from that adventure —> the death of Akashi’s last incarnate form —> the purchasing of a new body for her in the form of a new Mac Powerbook & my deepening into the mystic arts within the body *with* the ability to document and illuminate it’s purpose and presence as part of the New World.
