“The Art Farm”

So many event shave happened since i’ve arrived at the Art Farm and come into confluence with Ein, Lindzey, Blaine, Vogel and even Dan Dassman who appeared in confluence, all part of the weave of synchronicities that connects our various lineages into one.

It is good to see my brother, but I see more and more clearly – his mind is cracked. He is charismatic, he is incredibly talented and he sees visions, yet exists in a delerium which does not recognize it’s own movement or lack of personal responsibility – the very opposite of what I have been striving an anchoring into within myself.

In this Dan Dassman comes forward, giving me a token of reparation in the form of a Go Pro camera for my travels and a radiant clown token. It is a gesture of the Old World, amongst Kings, and I accept it, wiping the slate clean. I explain to him firmly that I am all about the round table, the treasure shared amongst all the peoples, and there is resonance. We share wine with James in the domicile of King Ian and Lady Lindsey.

It was … sobering to see the way in which Dan managed James’s financial situation with Creature, showing me the underbelly of what I had been seeing all along, the fugue of not being able to read the directions on the map, the question of what he should do about the bus, the way in which they spoke …. like a father speaking to a child that had no sense of it’s own responsibility.

The crew had gone to a birthday party for an ally of Dan’s about an hour and a half away, and i’d chosen not to go, and thus Dan, James and I had conversation and camaraderie within the realms.

In other news, I was given sanctuary by Ian and Lindsey as I make my way through the realms, and my connection to Queen Caroline back in Elysium allowed easement over my rent there in whatever capacity, with both events speaking to my support by the Goddess on this jaunt of being both the Emperor and the Fool.

In all these things I feel the movement of the Goddess. The unfolding of the threads of story and my innocent movement forward, once again seeing the detritus and resolutions of the people around me in a shifting clarity which says volumes about what is actually going on.

Morning notes –

. It's May 3rd, and I'm here at the art farm, the kingdom of Ion and Lindsay, where I've been granted sanctuary. Last night, Dan Dossman, who I'd been pissed off at for a long time regarding his actions during the infinite elements episode, arrived in synchronicity, and we had a drop in. He offered me like a little gumble thing and and a clown statue, which I considered to be a token of reparation, which I found absolutely fine and now have cleaned the slate with him. I just wanted to be clear. That's for me, that's the round table. It's the movement forward. James. James Vogel, as much as I love my brother and I do, it's just clear to me that his mind is gone, that he is bopping around from one circumstance to another. I mean, I saw him sitting there with Dan, and Dan was speaking to him like he was a child. James is like 53 years old. And he was telling him, yo, you can't just take this money and go off when you owe this girl money. And, you know, the drugs and the this and the that and just kind of bopping from one circumstance to another You know, I'm not discounting James's artistic abilities, but it's clear that he's like moody and unstable and just sort of.. It's almost like some kind of a drug shuffle. You know, it just kind of stands there in his trench coat or in his thing with his hat on and he, you know, sort of like leans from thing to thing. And he's cool and he's loving. But there's like something. There's something weird about it, you know, and it's just like when he left, he like fucking said, oh, don't sound so concerned about me. I'm out. I'm leaving you. I'm leaving everybody. I'm on my own quest now. Adios amigo. And I'm like, did you sense that I wasn't going to drive you to New York City? Because I straight up told me I wasn't going to do that or that Dan is talking to me about your behavior and I'm watching you listening to some dude tell you like he's your dad, how to manage your money while you're just raging and flipping out and people are like in this thing. And this is where I look at like the collective distortions and other things in the field and it always, always, really comes back to me recognizing what is, you know, going on. Like what is what is the great story? Because when I spoke to Dan, I was like, yeah, man, no, we are all these kings and queens from all these lineages, meaning each other at the basis of the new world and I'm building something to help everyone that's aligned with Dan's one tree project, which is also aligned with Ion, which is also aligned with other people. And I'm seeing some of the people that James wanted to introduce me to are arriving in the field. So everything for me is this sense of I'm documenting the builders and shapers of the new Earth and staying somewhat. above a lot of their neurotic bullshit. But at the same time, I mean, it's just like, it's this balls to the wall thing because as I'm getting things dialed, you know, it's like, like I had, I have sanctuary at, you know, Dak Hamul land, Jamul in San Diego, but now I'm in Charleston, North South Carolina. And I'm kind of understanding more of what's going on and what part of the thing for me is that like I basically moved through the circumstance, especially with James, in like a loving and innocent way, where like I started looking at him and realizing that I kept trying to do things with him, and he just kept resetting into his own thing. Like, there was no real. hearing what I was saying. There was love, there was like appreciation for what I was doing. There was an ability to conceive of what I was doing. There was no question of him an artist in that way, but something just felt. irresponsible, like not able to take responsibility for itself, like in a deep way. And I said that to him, you know, when I was there about myself. I said, hey, I'm learning to take care of myself in this way. I mean, this is a new thing for me. And the… It was interesting because it was the same thing that Dan Dossman was saying about James. I mean, I literally watched this one dude talking to James like he was his dad. And I'm like, what do we do? And I thought about it. I was like, wow, dude. And James is just sitting there, like, responding to it. I mean, like a child. And then he's just sort of wandering off. And he gets into a fugue and it's just like, wow. You know, this is interesting because like I've really like, I've envied James's, you know, the celebrity that he's had. I've ended, I've envied, you know, certain things where I felt like, oh, I was on the quest and I wasn't getting recognized. But as I've been out here, people are recognizing me and I'm seeing the connections between everyone and I'm seeing how the art project that I'm doing that I'm quite sure will be supported by DD Oberon, Dan Dassman, all these other people, because it's about honoring them and honoring that big world of what's going on and saying this is what we're doing to clear our way back to the garden. Everyone is dealing with their own distortions. Everyone. And that we are learning to hold space and be accountable and be responsible and be kind to each other, recognize that like, you know, we don't always have the answers and it's like,. It's a thing. I mean, when, and, you know, for me, it's like I'm continuing to ground out the mythica concept because it's now. It's time to publish. And so I've been building out the notion AI in order to get like the courses dialed and I've been building out like other things so I can really get like the flow going on. And there's a little bit of a discombobulation energy going on with me for sure. But then there's also the sense that all of this has been ordained by the goddess and that I'm here to witness these things on the quest and gradually find a way to build that out. And this is where in another chat, you know, I've been talking about how am I figuring out the pipeline of publishing because there's so much content that goes on. How do I get it going? And it just, it's just me realizing the nature of my art in the context of all these other artists in service to this emergent world and where, but that's a separate discussion. I mean, what I'm basically on about is just that you know, it's like.. He's just lost. I mean, he's in delirium. And I'm, like, avoiding saying things to him. You know, because I, you know, I just not just trying to avoiding like setting him off, but then I'm also just like on the verge of just saying like, dude, you're fucking lost. Like, you've got some major fucking issues. going on. And you know, I feel I feel like I did the right thing in picking up his Bigfoot costume from Adam and then driving down here. and having that whole experience. But at the same time, there's the sense that there's really just the overall sense that I'm dealing with someone unstable, but at the same time, that my innocence and kindness and desire to like really be functional in the world where I'm looking at, okay, what kind of healings can I offer people? What can I do this? Can I do that? What products am I offering? I'm getting the myth dialed. I got the mythopedia dialed. You know, I'm bringing the courses together. Then I'm going to interview the characters and I'm doing it from the road is me dealing with my own question of mania versus like being on path, where everyone, myself, James, Dan Dossman, like everyone is looking at the circumstances and it's this grand divination. You know, it's like people are saying like, okay, it's meant to go this way. Wait, no, it's meant to go this way. And everyone has a certain degree of listening for what the art wants. And this in and of itself is a beautiful thing because it speaks to people's different styles of divination. And so in that,. It's very beautiful. Also, in the morning kind of regard, the Southern hospitality here is just fantastic. You know, I mean, the people, they're kind, they've invited me in. You know, it's just, it's good vibes. It's good vibes all around. I mean, they're putting on a festival called Maybe They've got a huge piece of land right by the swamp. They're clearing stuff out. You know, there's a lot of really good stories here, and I feel that my purposing is to show this on the big picture level, gain a bunch of followers, following my writing as I'm talking about my experience of being mortal. And this, of course, is where my whole thing over like, am I offering people this? Am I offering people that? You know, it's like, I'm not like an optimizer. I'm not like a biohack person. You know, I'm like presenting the large scale story that features these various characters and how they interconnect. This is like we' DD, who I met on the Eastern Roads, episode, in all, through James, DD is close with Dan Dossman. Dan very close. Dan Dossman in Dedi is then friends with Oberon, and what I'm saying is that all of these lineages are interconnecting. And when I spoke to Dan about it, who I was, again, I was originally pissed at, but he made reparations with me. He gave me like a little GoPro thing, you know, as an action and he was just like, go, we're all moving through it. And I was like parsley is clean. You have approached me in the old world. I'm all about all of the kings being supported. That is my fundamental goal. You know, I'm not into holding on until I grudges over things that happened in the past. That's just silly. But it's also like, this is the definition of ethos, you know, and in the definition of ethos, you're really like looking at. You know, it's like it's, I'm not about optimization or this and anything. I'm about like how to behave. And I'm about how to behave with the planet. I'm about how to behave with yourself. You know, and I'm learning that in my own way, but I'm about giving people guidance into how to manage their relationships, but the age itself is confused. So people want things to navigate their way through their stories. And so these these are just things that I look at, you know, because it's like I'm finding my right place in the world where very often, you know, I found that a lot of like the social media and other stuff, it's just been a little like. Like not really something that I really care about, you know? Or where it looks like people sharing their lives and then other people commenting on their lives all feels like it's part of some overall bl thing of people just like kind of habitually expressing themselves or telling their story online. Whereas what I'm offering is something a lot more involved that shows all of our stories interconnected. And it's also, this is, again, drifting into the other territory, whereas right now I'm just kind of taking notes, like Dedi was this high priestess that I met during the Eastern Rhodes thing. Turns out Dan Dossman is connected to her. James Vogel, people are all arriving here at this land called M. James now drove off with his 45 foot bus that I don't even know if he has the money to pay the gas on or the diesel on him. And he was saying things to me like, oh, he can get like 30, 35 miles to the diesel gallon. And I'm like, are you sure about that? Like, I don't think that that's the way things are. And… But it all struck me as being like relatively crazy. And it was just interesting, like the Dan Dassman thing. I was like, oh, wait, you approached me in a noble way where we're fine. He was speaking in a way that was like clear. He was being very like this. I saw him dealing with James, and it was like, right, James, you've been like super privileged. And it's just, it's like it's destroyed his mind. And I didn't see it. I mean, I saw it, but I just I didn't believe it. So I just kind of wandered my way through it, lovingly. Like I wandered my way through it. You know, like. in an honorable way. You know? And the whole thing around that. was basically like. the whole thing around it was basically just like me. just gradually realizing that he would just drift. I mean, there were times when we were driving down here that he was looking at his phone, and he was like absolutely convinced we were going in the wrong direction. And I'm saying to him like, dude, I'm a professional driver. I know where I'm going. Like, I'm following the map, and he's just insisted Then he forgot. Then he looks back at the map, then he forgets again. And he thinks that I'm going in the wrong direction. Like he's like, oh, it's my phone. I'm like, it's not your phone. Your phone is pointing you towards something that isn't the actual location. Right? Or it was pointed into someplace that, you know, it's just crazy. And then in another instance, he just flat out loses his phone, right? Which he can't remember to charge. And then we're driving back on the road and we both spy it like on the ground. And I have a real nice time with James. He's my brother. I love him, you know, but yeah, no, he's just, he's just fucking crazy.