“Gaze of Shiva”
"Gaze of Shiva" January 9, 2019
"…an accidental ingestion of medicinal chocolates sunders my sense of ego and self and propels Joshua and I into the jungles where the gaze of Shiva moves through me like a wave of unstoppable light …"
MAJOR moment on the Quest where I felt my personality dissolve and the aspect, the gnosis of Shiva-consciousness anchoring within me, in which there was a vast purging of the sanskaras within both my self and Yeshua’s, arriving in a moment of purity in the jungle ….
To arrive in that moment of synchrony, where no one was in the jungle with us, was a proof of the realms of the akasha as well as the physics of the quest …
A MAJOR moment on the Quest where I felt my personality dissolve and the aspect, the gnosis of Shiva-consciousness anchoring within me, in which there was a vast purging of the sanskaras within both my self and Yeshua’s, arriving in a moment of purity in the jungle ….
It was beyond me, the anger and frustration pouring out of my voice and form. It was all I could do to align with the deva of Water and surrender
The medicine moved through me, altering my consciousness. Unprepared as I was, the insistence of the deva pushed aside the surface of my thoughts and feelings, demanding that which lay beneath the surface to be purged. It was a experience of pure rage where the disgust I had at the repetition of challenge and attempted dominance across the fields of my story erupted, sending me into a spin of bile and vitriol towards the characters in my story who had been vessels for the seemingly endless conflict.
The rage feels endless, taking me over with visions and expressions of venomous words towards the constant challenge i've felt from the people and my attempts to transcend the paradigm of the alpha male into that of the round table.
It is the aka of the Masculine in shadow, and it hits me like a cement truck, with visions of conflict and dominance moving through my mindseye in a torrent of frustrated disgust
To arrive in that moment of synchrony, where no one was in the jungle with us, was a proof of the realms of the akasha as well as the physics of the quest …
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